Well last night was again another pretty fast night, not a super ton of things going on. I went and saw Marge last night and I let it all out and you know that was nice. Nice air out session she thinks that I’m overwhelmed… LOL I got “do you think?” LOL She cracks me up. She told me that I was going to truly survive this and I told her that I am certain that I will it’s just hard right now. So onto other things.
When I went out on lunch yesterday I stopped by JCPenny to pick up some new jeans for Lehna b/c she’s be complaining that the waist band hurts her belly, well it’s tight so it probably does so I thought ‘Okay new jeans!” So I went to the store and I wanted to get a size 7 and a size 8 try them on her and which ever fit the best I was going to get more of whatever size. Well they ONLY had a size 8 and they were Capri pants and I LOVE Capri pants for Lehna b/c she needs the space in the waist but she needs the shortness of the Capri b/c then they are “regular” length and I don’t have to hem a THING… So I got the 8 and I thought they would swim on her… yeah not to much they are a little big but seriously not too bad at all… So they were they ONLY Capri 8’s so I told Tait to stop by the outlet mall in Kenosha tonight before he comes home and pick up some 8 Capri pants from carters for Lehna… hopefully he can find some there…
Since I got pants for Lehna I wanted to get Maya some new Pjs b/c she really doesn’t have very many pjs so I found these super cute monkey pjs and I got those for her. They are super cute on her lots of ruffles and yellows and blues, very sweet. So when it was time for bed last night Lehna threw a fit about not getting any new pjs and I told her that tomorrow she will wear her new pants and shirt and she threw a fit and I told her that I was going to call Tait and tell him not to bring anything for her if she was going to continue to throw her fit… that made her stop… and this morning after I got her dressed she told Maya that she was sorry for throwing a fit about not getting pjs. So that was kind of sweet, I wish I didn’t have to see the fit before but you know how it is. She’s three.
I got a bad report on Lehna yesterday from daycare. They said that she was being VERY disobedient and said that she REFUSED to take a nap and kept telling them no. they asked me what tips I have for getting her to take a nap… and I go well we normally just make her do quite time, just make her lay down and rest she doesn’t have to sleep but just to rest. So hopefully she won’t be such a terror tomorrow. Lehna told the teacher that she was going to act REALLY bad so that the teacher would call me, b/c she wanted to talk to me. So the teacher then told her well if you are really bad then I’m defiantly NOT going to call your mom. So we’ll see what happens. Lehna and I had a talk about it one the way home and so I hope she is better today. I know that they are just really tired I mean they get up early and it’s just rough for them. I feel bad but what can I do she’s THREE for goodness sakes. And she’s challenging them… you know the newness has worn off and now she is testing her boundaries... I mean she is MY child after all… So hopefully she’ll have a good day today and then return to normal Lehna on Monday…
Big weekend plans. Well not really. Tait is coming home we are going to feed the missionaries again on Sunday (only b/c I don’t know when we can do it again in March) and I teach on Sunday so I still have to read the lesson and prepare… I’ll do that tonight, before Tait gets home. We are going to have a lunch date on Saturday and probably have the rest of the time as family time. I have some laundry to do I wasn’t as great as keeping up on it this week I think it’s b/c I have been gone most of the week. But other than that… I quiet evening.
That’s all that’s happening right now… Hopefully I have a HAPPY GRAHM when I pick Lehna up… I hope! Oh and if you will notice the little ticker on the side... I AM still making progress... of course I only worked out 2 times this week... hopefully I'll get better with that next week...
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Just a Quick one...
So this is a short one today but I thought that I would update.
Well yesterday we went to see Helen in the hospital to bring her a funny card and so the girls could see her. Lehna was very excited to see her Nana but when she got there she of course got REALLY shy and barley talked to her. I think the hospital room kind of makes her nervous. While we were there Maya was being VERY two and seemed to just want to spill juice all over the floor and run up and down the halls… it was lots of fun. Helen is doing better. They said that she had a slight fever but overall she looked okay. She said it really hurts to walk but that’s understandable b/c they sliced her knees up, but they said that overtime that will start to go away and it will feel better. She is going to stay with Alta for awhile in Williamsport so she can go to therapy so she can get 100% again. You could tell that she was really really sore.
After that we went to Dover, so it was a long evening in the car. By the time we got home it was already 7:15 and Maya was rubbing her eyes (her tell all sign that she’s ready to sleep) and I got her changed and she wanted a bottle gave her that (yes I know she’s almost two and is STILL taking a bottle) and held her for a few minutes and she was turning all over me with her eyes closed and I go “Maya I’m going to go put you in your bed so you can stretch out” and she goes “uht ua” (which means no) but I put her in her bed and she was asleep before I left the room.
Lehna was a little different when I told her it was time to get ready for bed she of course goes “but I want to play” I felt really bad b/c their playtime was DRASITCALLY reduced b/c they were in the car and the hospital all evening. But I told her that I wouldl et her play until I got Molly put to bed well after I got Molly put to bed Lehna went right into her room and I go “are you going to bed?” and she goes “yea you said after you get Molly put to bed” No fight no fuss just right to bed.
So it was a pretty fast evening at home. I feel really bad b/c they didn’t get much time out of the car yesterday but I know that tonight they will have Trent to entertain them a little tonight so that will be nice for them. Let me see what else I think that’s it… it was so quiet last night I don’t have a lot to report on.
Oh one thing I thought was HILARIOUS! On Tuesday night Lehna came into my room carrying her cup of milk into the bedroom and laid down in my bed and she tried to take a drink of her milk out of her sippy cup and she promptly hands it too me and goes “mommy I can’t get a drink of my milk” and in my head I was thinking oh man I’m going to have to get up clean out the lid and it’s 3 in the morning and seriously I’m NOT doing it… so I go “Lehna I’m so sorry that you can’t get the milk out but there is Nothing I can do to make it come out, you will just have to wait until the morning” LOL And then a few minutes pass and I’m falling back asleep and Lehna wakes up again and goes “mommy I have a great idea… what if you take off the lid then I can drink for the cup” LOL… why I didn’t think of that before I don’t know… and I was like YES LEHNA that IS a GREAT idea… and handed her the cup w/out the lid and she promptly took a drink and went back to sleep. LOL it was really hilarious. Seriously. This kid cracks me up… I just like how she came up with the idea and tried to NOT make me feel like an idiot… but made her feel REALLY smart… she is so smart.
Well yesterday we went to see Helen in the hospital to bring her a funny card and so the girls could see her. Lehna was very excited to see her Nana but when she got there she of course got REALLY shy and barley talked to her. I think the hospital room kind of makes her nervous. While we were there Maya was being VERY two and seemed to just want to spill juice all over the floor and run up and down the halls… it was lots of fun. Helen is doing better. They said that she had a slight fever but overall she looked okay. She said it really hurts to walk but that’s understandable b/c they sliced her knees up, but they said that overtime that will start to go away and it will feel better. She is going to stay with Alta for awhile in Williamsport so she can go to therapy so she can get 100% again. You could tell that she was really really sore.
After that we went to Dover, so it was a long evening in the car. By the time we got home it was already 7:15 and Maya was rubbing her eyes (her tell all sign that she’s ready to sleep) and I got her changed and she wanted a bottle gave her that (yes I know she’s almost two and is STILL taking a bottle) and held her for a few minutes and she was turning all over me with her eyes closed and I go “Maya I’m going to go put you in your bed so you can stretch out” and she goes “uht ua” (which means no) but I put her in her bed and she was asleep before I left the room.
Lehna was a little different when I told her it was time to get ready for bed she of course goes “but I want to play” I felt really bad b/c their playtime was DRASITCALLY reduced b/c they were in the car and the hospital all evening. But I told her that I wouldl et her play until I got Molly put to bed well after I got Molly put to bed Lehna went right into her room and I go “are you going to bed?” and she goes “yea you said after you get Molly put to bed” No fight no fuss just right to bed.
So it was a pretty fast evening at home. I feel really bad b/c they didn’t get much time out of the car yesterday but I know that tonight they will have Trent to entertain them a little tonight so that will be nice for them. Let me see what else I think that’s it… it was so quiet last night I don’t have a lot to report on.
Oh one thing I thought was HILARIOUS! On Tuesday night Lehna came into my room carrying her cup of milk into the bedroom and laid down in my bed and she tried to take a drink of her milk out of her sippy cup and she promptly hands it too me and goes “mommy I can’t get a drink of my milk” and in my head I was thinking oh man I’m going to have to get up clean out the lid and it’s 3 in the morning and seriously I’m NOT doing it… so I go “Lehna I’m so sorry that you can’t get the milk out but there is Nothing I can do to make it come out, you will just have to wait until the morning” LOL And then a few minutes pass and I’m falling back asleep and Lehna wakes up again and goes “mommy I have a great idea… what if you take off the lid then I can drink for the cup” LOL… why I didn’t think of that before I don’t know… and I was like YES LEHNA that IS a GREAT idea… and handed her the cup w/out the lid and she promptly took a drink and went back to sleep. LOL it was really hilarious. Seriously. This kid cracks me up… I just like how she came up with the idea and tried to NOT make me feel like an idiot… but made her feel REALLY smart… she is so smart.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Update
Okay so yesterday the day got completely away from me before I could write and update. Luckily there really wasn’t much to tell. We are doing MUCH better this week as far as the routine. I have been getting up later so I came up with a BRILLIANT plan to help me get out the door earlier… I decided to set my alarm 10 minutes fast to then when I get up I will actually be 10 minutes ahead of schedule… well apparently when I set my alarm I set it 10 minutes SLOW! So when I got up this morning it was 10 minutes ahead of where I normal am… (sigh) I thought it was a brilliant plan… too bad I didn’t do the math part correctly… So was behind again this morning… But I was able to get to work with 5 minutes to spare. So I will readjust my alarm when I get home… (geeze)
The girls have been really good so far I haven’t had too many issues with them as far as getting the dressed and getting them out the door. On Tuesday morning I had a little trouble with Lehna but I just told her that I needed her to be a big girl and get dressed on her own and after saying her name a few Million times she got up and did it herself. I have been getting them to bed about 7:30-7:45 b/c by the time it rolls around they are both so very tired… that I just moved it back a little bit. It seems to work out. Of course Lehna the last two nights has come into my room about 3 a.m. and I don’t fight her I just let her come in. So we’ll see how long that little routine lasts…
Molly has been really great too I must say. When Tait was getting the girls ready in the morning Molly would REFUSE to come in and she would be left outside all day. Well Molly has been coming in when I go to the door, there has only been one day where she refused to come in when I called her. It really hasn’t been too cold outside either so that makes me happy that I don’t have to fight with her in the morning. This morning she did something really CRAZY I usually have to put the baby gates up so she goes right down the hall into her crate well this morning I moved the baby gates so the hallway was open… well Molly went around to the other side and looked at me and I go “oh darn it” and then I moved the gate Molly went right down the hall and went right into her crate… I didn’t have to chase her or anything… very strange for this dog. But at night since Lehna has been coming in my room at night Molly starts to growl when she sees the door opening… then once she sees its Lehna she settles right down… it’s so strange. I’m glad that she’s around b/c she does make it feel safer in the house at night… and if every I am worried about anything ‘being in the house” I just let her do a quick security check then I put her back in her room. It’s been really reassuring to have her around.
So this week Helen had surgery on her knees both knees so tonight we are going to go see her in the hospital. I wanted to get her a couple of days rest before I brought the girls by and I guess yesterday she was still really out of it so tonight we are going to stop by to do that. I think she will like it. It also happens to be Tim’s 60th Birthday, and he should be there so the girls can wish him a Happy Birthday. So that will be a nice little change to the evening.
Only two more days and then Tait comes home. This weekend we have the missionaries coming for Sunday lunch and also I teach for YW so that will be good. I have been reading my scriptures more b/c I feel like I need to but last night… I couldn’t find them. I asked Lehna and she goes “I don’t know where they are mommy” and I kept asking her b/c I figured that they probably moved them b/c they like to play with the buckles on the holder and Lehna finally goes “mommy will you stop asking me where they are… I don’t know” LOL so I thought that was hilarious.
Last night Lehna and I were talking about prayers and she said that she likes to pray to God and I told her that was good and I told her that I need to pray for a job in WI and she goes “mommy we can pray for a job for WI for you… here let me do it” so she gets up behind me and puts her hands on my head and goes “God please get a job for my mommy in WI, thank you, amen” LOL So Lehna gave me a blessing… very sweet. I must be talking about this job thing a lot b/c she seems pretty focused on it… but so am I so maybe that’s why… So I still haven’t found my scriptures and I looked last night… I thought maybe I carried them to the van but I forgot to look this morning… so hopefully they will appear b/c I really want to make sure that I can continue to read them. (Sigh)
Alright so that’s the news so far.
The girls have been really good so far I haven’t had too many issues with them as far as getting the dressed and getting them out the door. On Tuesday morning I had a little trouble with Lehna but I just told her that I needed her to be a big girl and get dressed on her own and after saying her name a few Million times she got up and did it herself. I have been getting them to bed about 7:30-7:45 b/c by the time it rolls around they are both so very tired… that I just moved it back a little bit. It seems to work out. Of course Lehna the last two nights has come into my room about 3 a.m. and I don’t fight her I just let her come in. So we’ll see how long that little routine lasts…
Molly has been really great too I must say. When Tait was getting the girls ready in the morning Molly would REFUSE to come in and she would be left outside all day. Well Molly has been coming in when I go to the door, there has only been one day where she refused to come in when I called her. It really hasn’t been too cold outside either so that makes me happy that I don’t have to fight with her in the morning. This morning she did something really CRAZY I usually have to put the baby gates up so she goes right down the hall into her crate well this morning I moved the baby gates so the hallway was open… well Molly went around to the other side and looked at me and I go “oh darn it” and then I moved the gate Molly went right down the hall and went right into her crate… I didn’t have to chase her or anything… very strange for this dog. But at night since Lehna has been coming in my room at night Molly starts to growl when she sees the door opening… then once she sees its Lehna she settles right down… it’s so strange. I’m glad that she’s around b/c she does make it feel safer in the house at night… and if every I am worried about anything ‘being in the house” I just let her do a quick security check then I put her back in her room. It’s been really reassuring to have her around.
So this week Helen had surgery on her knees both knees so tonight we are going to go see her in the hospital. I wanted to get her a couple of days rest before I brought the girls by and I guess yesterday she was still really out of it so tonight we are going to stop by to do that. I think she will like it. It also happens to be Tim’s 60th Birthday, and he should be there so the girls can wish him a Happy Birthday. So that will be a nice little change to the evening.
Only two more days and then Tait comes home. This weekend we have the missionaries coming for Sunday lunch and also I teach for YW so that will be good. I have been reading my scriptures more b/c I feel like I need to but last night… I couldn’t find them. I asked Lehna and she goes “I don’t know where they are mommy” and I kept asking her b/c I figured that they probably moved them b/c they like to play with the buckles on the holder and Lehna finally goes “mommy will you stop asking me where they are… I don’t know” LOL so I thought that was hilarious.
Last night Lehna and I were talking about prayers and she said that she likes to pray to God and I told her that was good and I told her that I need to pray for a job in WI and she goes “mommy we can pray for a job for WI for you… here let me do it” so she gets up behind me and puts her hands on my head and goes “God please get a job for my mommy in WI, thank you, amen” LOL So Lehna gave me a blessing… very sweet. I must be talking about this job thing a lot b/c she seems pretty focused on it… but so am I so maybe that’s why… So I still haven’t found my scriptures and I looked last night… I thought maybe I carried them to the van but I forgot to look this morning… so hopefully they will appear b/c I really want to make sure that I can continue to read them. (Sigh)
Alright so that’s the news so far.
Monday, February 23, 2009
A Weekend in Review.
Well as promised I have another update for you. This probably won’t be as long, but we’ll see. Well I have to first say that I am going to have a new outlook on my current situation. Not to get too “churchy” but this weekend we had a lesson from the Missionaries, Sunday School, & Young Women all talked about three things, having faith, your attitude and how it influences your behavior, AND your divine role as a wife and mother. Well let me tell you those lessons were ALLLLL for me. So I have decided to take a different path. My week last week was horrible I had a horrible attitude all week and so therefore I have to change my perspective. Which for me it will be hard b/c for me it’s easier to be negative then positive. But I’m going to focus on my “lessons” and really use them to my best ability. I’m going to put my faith back in the big man upstairs and know that he won’t let me suffer and that he will open all the right doors for me. I didn’t have a lot of faith in him last week and I think that’s why my week was so horrible. I’m also going to focus on using this time to be a better mom to my girls. Man last week I was a horrible beast to them just yelling and angry and this week I’m going to try to have more patience with them. I may make them take play time in their room for 15-20 minutes just to give me a break for the short span of the evening but maybe that will help. But I’m going to get better at this and this is an opportunity for me to learn and to adjust my parenting skills accordingly. I’m really going to try to stay positive, which again is REALLY hard for me.
So the weekend. On Saturday Tait was home yeah!!! Well technically he came home Friday night but it was late enough it was almost Saturday morning. So we had some much needed family time. We played a lot on the Wii Fit and that was TONS of fun. It was a total of 40 minutes (wii fit time) but it was off and on the entire day. Tait kept teasing me telling me he was going to take the Wii fit and I told him No way Jose… I enjoy it way too much and so does Lehna… she doesn’t really know what she’s doing but she seems to have a good time with it.
Saturday night we had the missionaries come over for dinner. IT was amazing the Sunday before we got this book thing and it was a schedule for feed the missionaries… well I had no idea this book even existed b/c I’m in YW and apparently they pass it around the RS and to the Nursery leaders but that’s as far as it goes… so I was glad to help. We had ham, potato bake, corn, corn bread and brownies. We sent ham and brownies home with the Missionaries b/c I didn’t want them to go bad and there was simply no way we would have eaten that entire ham. Trent came over and he watched the girls and Tait and I went out for a date. It was nice we went to BW3 and played poker on the screen Tait was doing really well and I told him that it was all the “luck of the cards” then he explained to me that “math part” of Poker and then I seemed to do much better after that. I didn’t realize there was Math in Poker… so I’m a little slow. So I hope that Tait can teach more about the math part of it, b/c he said that it just takes practice so I hope to play more. Since we had such a large dinner we literally ate French fries and drank our cokes… nothing exciting just a nice evening out.
Sunday we went to church and we had leftovers and we had some much needed family time again. It was a pretty relaxed evening overall. So that was kind of nice compared to the week I liked being able to enjoy the weekend.
So Lehna is really having a hard time adjusting to Tait leaving and has been bad as far as her behavior which I expected. But last night when we were getting the girls ready for bed Tait told Lehna that when she wakes up that he was going to be back in WI and Lehna goes “you are always leaving us, you always leave, leave, leave, it’s like we are babies or something, why do you have to leave so much daddy?” So Lehna got mad at Tait and wouldn’t let Tait hold her or anything and Tait explained to her that he had to go there to save babies and that he would call her everyday to make sure she knew that he loved her and missed her everyday. Lehna then looks at him with her big blue eyes and go “well you bring me another princess doll?” LOL Tait goes “of course I will bring you something” So he asked Lehna what he should bring Maya and she goes “I think you should bring her another baby b/c she loves babies” But when Tait brought the new baby home Lehna played with it all weekend… So we’ll see what happens.
So I think that explains her horrible behavior last week. She is mad at Tait… well I hope that she gets over it quickly I’m sure she won’t… but I hope she does… I know it’s really hard on her and Maya both. I mean I thought this was hard on me but I mean it is such and adjustment for them and I have to just keep telling myself that this is so much harder for them and that I need to be strong so they will adjust faster.
One thing that I thought was really really sweet is, I wish on Stars. I have done this since I learned the poem to recite when I was really young. But I have been doing the poem out loud when I see the first star of the evening and Lehna will also recite her version of the poem and say her wish out loud. Lehna also asks what I wish for when I make my wish and recently my wish has been to “find a job in Wisconsin” I have been wishing on this so long that it’s starting to become routine. Well this morning as I was driving them to daycare Lehna saw a star in sky and did her version of the poem and goes “today my wish is not for me but it’s for mommy, I wish for her to find a job in Wisconsin.” It was so sweet I started to tear up. She also wished for my family to love me too… but I already know that my family loves me. But I thought that was so sweet. I told her thank you for giving me her wish and she goes “I just want you to be happy mommy” This kid is so intuitive it’s kind of scary.
So here we go another week another outlook and a fresh start. If I start to get depressed and horribly “ugly” on these posts if someone could comment and say “suck it up or remember to keep positive for the girls” you know something that will help get me back on track that would really be helpful.
So the weekend. On Saturday Tait was home yeah!!! Well technically he came home Friday night but it was late enough it was almost Saturday morning. So we had some much needed family time. We played a lot on the Wii Fit and that was TONS of fun. It was a total of 40 minutes (wii fit time) but it was off and on the entire day. Tait kept teasing me telling me he was going to take the Wii fit and I told him No way Jose… I enjoy it way too much and so does Lehna… she doesn’t really know what she’s doing but she seems to have a good time with it.
Saturday night we had the missionaries come over for dinner. IT was amazing the Sunday before we got this book thing and it was a schedule for feed the missionaries… well I had no idea this book even existed b/c I’m in YW and apparently they pass it around the RS and to the Nursery leaders but that’s as far as it goes… so I was glad to help. We had ham, potato bake, corn, corn bread and brownies. We sent ham and brownies home with the Missionaries b/c I didn’t want them to go bad and there was simply no way we would have eaten that entire ham. Trent came over and he watched the girls and Tait and I went out for a date. It was nice we went to BW3 and played poker on the screen Tait was doing really well and I told him that it was all the “luck of the cards” then he explained to me that “math part” of Poker and then I seemed to do much better after that. I didn’t realize there was Math in Poker… so I’m a little slow. So I hope that Tait can teach more about the math part of it, b/c he said that it just takes practice so I hope to play more. Since we had such a large dinner we literally ate French fries and drank our cokes… nothing exciting just a nice evening out.
Sunday we went to church and we had leftovers and we had some much needed family time again. It was a pretty relaxed evening overall. So that was kind of nice compared to the week I liked being able to enjoy the weekend.
So Lehna is really having a hard time adjusting to Tait leaving and has been bad as far as her behavior which I expected. But last night when we were getting the girls ready for bed Tait told Lehna that when she wakes up that he was going to be back in WI and Lehna goes “you are always leaving us, you always leave, leave, leave, it’s like we are babies or something, why do you have to leave so much daddy?” So Lehna got mad at Tait and wouldn’t let Tait hold her or anything and Tait explained to her that he had to go there to save babies and that he would call her everyday to make sure she knew that he loved her and missed her everyday. Lehna then looks at him with her big blue eyes and go “well you bring me another princess doll?” LOL Tait goes “of course I will bring you something” So he asked Lehna what he should bring Maya and she goes “I think you should bring her another baby b/c she loves babies” But when Tait brought the new baby home Lehna played with it all weekend… So we’ll see what happens.
So I think that explains her horrible behavior last week. She is mad at Tait… well I hope that she gets over it quickly I’m sure she won’t… but I hope she does… I know it’s really hard on her and Maya both. I mean I thought this was hard on me but I mean it is such and adjustment for them and I have to just keep telling myself that this is so much harder for them and that I need to be strong so they will adjust faster.
One thing that I thought was really really sweet is, I wish on Stars. I have done this since I learned the poem to recite when I was really young. But I have been doing the poem out loud when I see the first star of the evening and Lehna will also recite her version of the poem and say her wish out loud. Lehna also asks what I wish for when I make my wish and recently my wish has been to “find a job in Wisconsin” I have been wishing on this so long that it’s starting to become routine. Well this morning as I was driving them to daycare Lehna saw a star in sky and did her version of the poem and goes “today my wish is not for me but it’s for mommy, I wish for her to find a job in Wisconsin.” It was so sweet I started to tear up. She also wished for my family to love me too… but I already know that my family loves me. But I thought that was so sweet. I told her thank you for giving me her wish and she goes “I just want you to be happy mommy” This kid is so intuitive it’s kind of scary.
So here we go another week another outlook and a fresh start. If I start to get depressed and horribly “ugly” on these posts if someone could comment and say “suck it up or remember to keep positive for the girls” you know something that will help get me back on track that would really be helpful.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Another update that makes 3 this week!
Update! I’m getting pretty good at this update thing… I mean at least I have been consistently updating on a regular basis… LOL
So the news and views of Day 3…
Well surprisingly it was a pretty calm evening last night. I ordered a Wii Fit for my V-Day gift and it came in during the day so I was way excited to try it out last night! I told Lehna that when I picked her up that I had a big surprise in the car. She saw the box when we got to the car and she was REALLY excited. So we got home and opened it up and we set it up… and she seemed to like it… she played on it for awhile but then got frustrated after awhile. So I told her that it was time to get off for awhile so I could make dinner. She threw another fit b/c I told her it was time to “rest”. So after dinner we set it back up and she bowled. She liked that but after about 10 minutes she was done with it… and requested to watch cartoons.
I set up the Wii fit after the girls went to bed and let me tell you nothing motivates me faster then watching my little Mii figure go from a cute little shape to a ginormous round ball (b/c it shows you what you look like in the Wii world) So I got on it… did some aerobics: hula hoop, running, and step aerobics and attempted some balancing things but I was so bad at it… I kept going back to aerobics sections they were pretty fun. I played on it for like 20 minutes Wii time so I think I did a good job. I had a good time and I can’t wait to unlock some more games. I hope that I can loose weight with this thing. I have gained 6 lbs back but one REALLY positive thing was BEFORE I started working out my BMI number was SOOOOOO LARGE and I was really depressed… well now my BMI is still REALLY high but it’s down almost 20 points so that’s a good thing right? I guess that’s what will happen when you lose 35 lbs. I was hoping to hit a goal by Easter but since I got of the exercise bandwagon for about a month… I think I’m going to be off target unless I really step it up on the Wii. But it will be difficult without having someone to help corral the kids but hopefully with the early bedtime I’ll be able to work out after they go to bed I hope.
Well last night was good. The girls were good overall just a few minor break downs but Maya fell asleep by 7:30 and Lehna was out by 8. They haven’t been napping at daycare so they are pretty tired. The girls are eating so well at night and I’m so glad. They were just picking at their food before and I never understood why they just would pick at their meals and I think it’s just b/c they snack they get on the way home is usually pretty small and so by the time it’s time to eat they are ready to eat. Yesterday Maya at two bowls of Hamburger Helper that NEVER happens… of course by 6 she is “mama eat, mama eat” when I’m trying to cook. But I’m glad they are eating better at dinner b/c it is annoying when you cook for them and they just look at you like “I’m not eating that” LOL OH well
Yesterday daycare wasn’t very eventful besides not being able to find their lunch containers but they were found in the sink (they apparently wash them) so I picked them up this morning. Maya had a pretty good night she only woke up once and then at 4:30 she thought she was ready to get up. I could hear her bouncing around in her crib and then by 4:45 she was out again. So that made getting myself ready MUCH easier. I woke up pretty sore from the Wii so that’s a good sign; well I am taking it as a good sign. LOL
Tonight Tait comes home and I’m so excited about it. It’s amazing how much I miss him. It’s just nice having another adult to talk to. I mean I love talked to Lehna and Maya but there is only so much Barbie, baby, princess, bottle and cartoon talk I can take… Lehna dressed up in her pretty dress with her pretty shoes and ran around the house dragging the dog leash… when I asked her what she was doing she goes “taking the dog for a walk” I mean what else would she have been doing the she proceed to tell me that they were in a race and she had to get to the finish line. Oh little kids they are pretty funny.
Big plans for the weekend. Well on Saturday morning I’m going to go grocery shopping ALONE. I can’t wait! LOL and then on Saturday night we have the missionaries coming for dinner and then Tait and I are going on a date. It should be fun. Sunday we have church and then that’s it. Just to get ready for the week to come. I have been pretty good about keeping up with the laundry this week so we shouldn’t have to be tied to that this weekend. I tried to do a load a night but you know some days are better then others
Tait was telling me last night that his dad took his clothes to the laundry mat b/c their washer and dryer is broken… so he won’t have his laundry to do… YEAH! And besides taking all of his clothes to wash to IN then bringing them back to WI doesn’t really make a lot of sense.
Maya is really coming along in her speaking. She wasn’t calling Lehna anything besides Sissy and yesterday I was calling Lehna to get ready for bed and Maya was repeating her and she called her “Nah” which I know is a far cry from Lehna but at least she’s trying now so I was so very excited about that. I don’t really know why but I thought it was cute. She speaks pretty clearly for the most part sometimes I understand what she’s saying pretty well then other times I have no idea… but that’s pretty normal.
Good news for once about the job search. I had a GREAT interview with the staffing company in Kenosha. I mean it went REALLY REALLY WELL! So he said he will call me the end of next week to schedule a face to face so HOPEFULLY that will turn into a job. It’s a job I definitely want. I will get to run the office and I will get to hire my own staffing supervisors… I will be AWSOME. I think I didn’t as for enough Pay though b/c when I told him how much I was looking to make he goes “oh my it will pay the minimum of that” So I guess I didn’t ask for enough, but that’s always tough that part of it. So hopefully… Tait said that he talked to his HR about me where he is working and they are looking for Two HR recruiters (which is WHAT I DO) So he said that it’s not listed yet but they are going to be in the next coming weeks and seriously that would be cool to work for such a large company and their benefits are good that company they actually have educational programs where they will pay to extend your education and I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to get my Master’s that would be SWEEEEET. So hopefully in the next month something will really be moving forward… I just hate that it is taking sooooo long. (sigh) So hopefully things will keep moving in a positive light. I think it’s a good sign that I am having hits back so that’s good… I just looking for the right light you know.
So the news and views of Day 3…
Well surprisingly it was a pretty calm evening last night. I ordered a Wii Fit for my V-Day gift and it came in during the day so I was way excited to try it out last night! I told Lehna that when I picked her up that I had a big surprise in the car. She saw the box when we got to the car and she was REALLY excited. So we got home and opened it up and we set it up… and she seemed to like it… she played on it for awhile but then got frustrated after awhile. So I told her that it was time to get off for awhile so I could make dinner. She threw another fit b/c I told her it was time to “rest”. So after dinner we set it back up and she bowled. She liked that but after about 10 minutes she was done with it… and requested to watch cartoons.
I set up the Wii fit after the girls went to bed and let me tell you nothing motivates me faster then watching my little Mii figure go from a cute little shape to a ginormous round ball (b/c it shows you what you look like in the Wii world) So I got on it… did some aerobics: hula hoop, running, and step aerobics and attempted some balancing things but I was so bad at it… I kept going back to aerobics sections they were pretty fun. I played on it for like 20 minutes Wii time so I think I did a good job. I had a good time and I can’t wait to unlock some more games. I hope that I can loose weight with this thing. I have gained 6 lbs back but one REALLY positive thing was BEFORE I started working out my BMI number was SOOOOOO LARGE and I was really depressed… well now my BMI is still REALLY high but it’s down almost 20 points so that’s a good thing right? I guess that’s what will happen when you lose 35 lbs. I was hoping to hit a goal by Easter but since I got of the exercise bandwagon for about a month… I think I’m going to be off target unless I really step it up on the Wii. But it will be difficult without having someone to help corral the kids but hopefully with the early bedtime I’ll be able to work out after they go to bed I hope.
Well last night was good. The girls were good overall just a few minor break downs but Maya fell asleep by 7:30 and Lehna was out by 8. They haven’t been napping at daycare so they are pretty tired. The girls are eating so well at night and I’m so glad. They were just picking at their food before and I never understood why they just would pick at their meals and I think it’s just b/c they snack they get on the way home is usually pretty small and so by the time it’s time to eat they are ready to eat. Yesterday Maya at two bowls of Hamburger Helper that NEVER happens… of course by 6 she is “mama eat, mama eat” when I’m trying to cook. But I’m glad they are eating better at dinner b/c it is annoying when you cook for them and they just look at you like “I’m not eating that” LOL OH well
Yesterday daycare wasn’t very eventful besides not being able to find their lunch containers but they were found in the sink (they apparently wash them) so I picked them up this morning. Maya had a pretty good night she only woke up once and then at 4:30 she thought she was ready to get up. I could hear her bouncing around in her crib and then by 4:45 she was out again. So that made getting myself ready MUCH easier. I woke up pretty sore from the Wii so that’s a good sign; well I am taking it as a good sign. LOL
Tonight Tait comes home and I’m so excited about it. It’s amazing how much I miss him. It’s just nice having another adult to talk to. I mean I love talked to Lehna and Maya but there is only so much Barbie, baby, princess, bottle and cartoon talk I can take… Lehna dressed up in her pretty dress with her pretty shoes and ran around the house dragging the dog leash… when I asked her what she was doing she goes “taking the dog for a walk” I mean what else would she have been doing the she proceed to tell me that they were in a race and she had to get to the finish line. Oh little kids they are pretty funny.
Big plans for the weekend. Well on Saturday morning I’m going to go grocery shopping ALONE. I can’t wait! LOL and then on Saturday night we have the missionaries coming for dinner and then Tait and I are going on a date. It should be fun. Sunday we have church and then that’s it. Just to get ready for the week to come. I have been pretty good about keeping up with the laundry this week so we shouldn’t have to be tied to that this weekend. I tried to do a load a night but you know some days are better then others
Tait was telling me last night that his dad took his clothes to the laundry mat b/c their washer and dryer is broken… so he won’t have his laundry to do… YEAH! And besides taking all of his clothes to wash to IN then bringing them back to WI doesn’t really make a lot of sense.
Maya is really coming along in her speaking. She wasn’t calling Lehna anything besides Sissy and yesterday I was calling Lehna to get ready for bed and Maya was repeating her and she called her “Nah” which I know is a far cry from Lehna but at least she’s trying now so I was so very excited about that. I don’t really know why but I thought it was cute. She speaks pretty clearly for the most part sometimes I understand what she’s saying pretty well then other times I have no idea… but that’s pretty normal.
Good news for once about the job search. I had a GREAT interview with the staffing company in Kenosha. I mean it went REALLY REALLY WELL! So he said he will call me the end of next week to schedule a face to face so HOPEFULLY that will turn into a job. It’s a job I definitely want. I will get to run the office and I will get to hire my own staffing supervisors… I will be AWSOME. I think I didn’t as for enough Pay though b/c when I told him how much I was looking to make he goes “oh my it will pay the minimum of that” So I guess I didn’t ask for enough, but that’s always tough that part of it. So hopefully… Tait said that he talked to his HR about me where he is working and they are looking for Two HR recruiters (which is WHAT I DO) So he said that it’s not listed yet but they are going to be in the next coming weeks and seriously that would be cool to work for such a large company and their benefits are good that company they actually have educational programs where they will pay to extend your education and I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to get my Master’s that would be SWEEEEET. So hopefully in the next month something will really be moving forward… I just hate that it is taking sooooo long. (sigh) So hopefully things will keep moving in a positive light. I think it’s a good sign that I am having hits back so that’s good… I just looking for the right light you know.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Update Day 2
Okay so another night has passed and I thought that the world would want to know what happened on day two of the adventure of being a single parent.
Well I have to say my opinion of the daycare… didn’t change… sadly enough… now I’m just scratching my head… let me explain.
So on Tuesday when I picked up the girls there was an Express Employee that was just hired on at the daycare. She’s a SUPER sweet lady and I was kind of glad actually. B/c I figured since we already have a rapport from Express that if anything ‘funny’ was going on at the daycare she would tell me about it right? Well I called her by name we talked about how the girls were during the day and she goes ‘do you have a sister?” and I was like no… I don’t… and she goes “you have a look a like I’m telling you” and I was like REALLY other then ME that’s cool. Well when it was time to leave I told her that I would see her tomorrow and she goes “oh it was nice meeting you” and I thought “good lord she doesn’t know who I am” LOL
So on Wednesday when I picked up the girls I said “Elizabeth you aren’t sure where you know me from do you?” and she goes “well I was going to tell you yesterday that there is a girl at a staffing company that looks JUST like you” and I go “Elizabeth that’s ME!” I told her that she knows me from Express. And she was like “well you look so different LOL” Elizabeth is really sweet, a little slow but sweet I think she will do REALLY well with the kids actually, they are just her speed.
Well the director was standing around and was listening and talking when he could… and he goes “you work at Express in Crawfordsville?” and I was like “hum no I work in Lafayette” (then I was thinking… okay we had this conversation about me moving the girls to a Lafayette Daycare b/c I didn’t want to drive them to Crawfordsville every morning b/c I work in LAFAYETTE, hence why they are at this new place) So then he decided to follow me out asking me about Express and asking if we get PT work in so I was like “great just what I need, to be hounded by TWO people trying to get a job” (sigh) But after the two encounters I have to tell you I feel on a whole different planet then the workers at this daycare… it’s kind of scary. So this is why my opinion hasn’t changed. Of course they still have all their clothes when I picked them up and they seemed to eat their lunches really well… so there are positives I guess (sigh) Lord Give me the strength
Well last night was pretty uneventful to be honest with you. We had dinner got the some laundry and dishes done. Maya decided to follow me around the house saying “I want up” and I kept telling her no mommy is busy. So about 7:25 I got done with the chores I played with the girls on the floor for awhile… they mostly just climbed on me while I just laid there… then once I got off the floor Lehna goes “will you play with us?” and I was just like… Lehna I was just playing with you one the floor… apparently it wasn’t enough… not enough hours in the day I guess. (sigh)
So Maya decided that she really didn’t WANT to sleep last night… she got me up 5 times last night… just the whinny cry thing were she’s not totally awake but it’s enough to where you have to either give her a pass, change her diaper, give her a bottle, or just pat her back to soothe her back to sleep b/c if not in 5 seconds she’s going to be up SCREAMING… (sigh) why this kid won’t sleep through the night… I mean she’s almost 2 for goodness sakes… I was SMART I would have given her Tylenol after the first time… but I didn’t, didn’t even think about it. So if this happens again tonight....I will know what to do … she’s been really chewing hard on her passes so I have a feeling she is getting some more teeth in… So this morning when it was time to wake up she goes “sleep mama sleep” and I told her that’s what you should have done last NIGHT! So by the time I fussed with her she was in a terrible mood and cried the entire time getting her ready this morning… I gave her Tylenol and that seemed to calm her down quite a bit. So that was nice. She slept all the way to daycare… when I dropped her off I told the Director that she was in a horrible mood so he picked her up and she seemed to like that and so hopefully things will be okay.
So I have to tell you ever since I have been on my own I have had to seriously go to the store every day… it’s supper annoying b/c there isn’t anything on the way besides CVS or Walgreens and I hate getting the kids in and out of the car seats out of the car… so it’s supper annoying!!! The first day I didn’t have any form of lunch for the girls for daycare… then yesterday I noticed that Maya only had like 5 diapers left so I had to stop… the this morning I noticed that we don’t have very much milk left… I mean seriously when this ENDS… I have decided that I REFUSE to go to the store again today to get anything… so I should have enough to get through the evening and tomorrow I’ll probably have to go and get some but seriously… when does it END!
I don’t know why I’m so negative right now. I am just in kind of a different world and maybe I’m fighting change, adjusting to the situation, frustrated that nothing is happening with my job search and wrapped that up with a bunch of self pity, its’ a pretty sad package. I had a pow wow with Jackie last night and it did help but at one point she did ask “so are you going to see Marge soon?” LOL so I guess that’s my sign maybe I’m not totally balanced. I guess I should feel grateful for what I have and just leave it at that, but mercy me I want so much more. See there is where the self pity is coming in… Sick isn’t it? So I will get through this I know I will I’m a SURIVIOR and a strong one in that. I know a lot of women do this… I mean millions of women do this… I don’t desire a rally many other women don’t get a rally and a parade of how great they are… but let me tell you this is definitely a new perspective on life. I need to just be grateful. So hopefully as I continue down this path for awhile I won’t offend too many by my constant whines and complaints but remember this is my journal of MY life and if you are offended then stop reading it b/c I’m going to whine and I’m going to complain… that’s part of who I AM… I VENT… and let EVERYONE know just how I feel. I don’t hold anything in even when it’s embarrassing and horrible, I am NOT a keeper never have been probably will never be. So cheers to the journey.
Well I have to say my opinion of the daycare… didn’t change… sadly enough… now I’m just scratching my head… let me explain.
So on Tuesday when I picked up the girls there was an Express Employee that was just hired on at the daycare. She’s a SUPER sweet lady and I was kind of glad actually. B/c I figured since we already have a rapport from Express that if anything ‘funny’ was going on at the daycare she would tell me about it right? Well I called her by name we talked about how the girls were during the day and she goes ‘do you have a sister?” and I was like no… I don’t… and she goes “you have a look a like I’m telling you” and I was like REALLY other then ME that’s cool. Well when it was time to leave I told her that I would see her tomorrow and she goes “oh it was nice meeting you” and I thought “good lord she doesn’t know who I am” LOL
So on Wednesday when I picked up the girls I said “Elizabeth you aren’t sure where you know me from do you?” and she goes “well I was going to tell you yesterday that there is a girl at a staffing company that looks JUST like you” and I go “Elizabeth that’s ME!” I told her that she knows me from Express. And she was like “well you look so different LOL” Elizabeth is really sweet, a little slow but sweet I think she will do REALLY well with the kids actually, they are just her speed.
Well the director was standing around and was listening and talking when he could… and he goes “you work at Express in Crawfordsville?” and I was like “hum no I work in Lafayette” (then I was thinking… okay we had this conversation about me moving the girls to a Lafayette Daycare b/c I didn’t want to drive them to Crawfordsville every morning b/c I work in LAFAYETTE, hence why they are at this new place) So then he decided to follow me out asking me about Express and asking if we get PT work in so I was like “great just what I need, to be hounded by TWO people trying to get a job” (sigh) But after the two encounters I have to tell you I feel on a whole different planet then the workers at this daycare… it’s kind of scary. So this is why my opinion hasn’t changed. Of course they still have all their clothes when I picked them up and they seemed to eat their lunches really well… so there are positives I guess (sigh) Lord Give me the strength
Well last night was pretty uneventful to be honest with you. We had dinner got the some laundry and dishes done. Maya decided to follow me around the house saying “I want up” and I kept telling her no mommy is busy. So about 7:25 I got done with the chores I played with the girls on the floor for awhile… they mostly just climbed on me while I just laid there… then once I got off the floor Lehna goes “will you play with us?” and I was just like… Lehna I was just playing with you one the floor… apparently it wasn’t enough… not enough hours in the day I guess. (sigh)
So Maya decided that she really didn’t WANT to sleep last night… she got me up 5 times last night… just the whinny cry thing were she’s not totally awake but it’s enough to where you have to either give her a pass, change her diaper, give her a bottle, or just pat her back to soothe her back to sleep b/c if not in 5 seconds she’s going to be up SCREAMING… (sigh) why this kid won’t sleep through the night… I mean she’s almost 2 for goodness sakes… I was SMART I would have given her Tylenol after the first time… but I didn’t, didn’t even think about it. So if this happens again tonight....I will know what to do … she’s been really chewing hard on her passes so I have a feeling she is getting some more teeth in… So this morning when it was time to wake up she goes “sleep mama sleep” and I told her that’s what you should have done last NIGHT! So by the time I fussed with her she was in a terrible mood and cried the entire time getting her ready this morning… I gave her Tylenol and that seemed to calm her down quite a bit. So that was nice. She slept all the way to daycare… when I dropped her off I told the Director that she was in a horrible mood so he picked her up and she seemed to like that and so hopefully things will be okay.
So I have to tell you ever since I have been on my own I have had to seriously go to the store every day… it’s supper annoying b/c there isn’t anything on the way besides CVS or Walgreens and I hate getting the kids in and out of the car seats out of the car… so it’s supper annoying!!! The first day I didn’t have any form of lunch for the girls for daycare… then yesterday I noticed that Maya only had like 5 diapers left so I had to stop… the this morning I noticed that we don’t have very much milk left… I mean seriously when this ENDS… I have decided that I REFUSE to go to the store again today to get anything… so I should have enough to get through the evening and tomorrow I’ll probably have to go and get some but seriously… when does it END!
I don’t know why I’m so negative right now. I am just in kind of a different world and maybe I’m fighting change, adjusting to the situation, frustrated that nothing is happening with my job search and wrapped that up with a bunch of self pity, its’ a pretty sad package. I had a pow wow with Jackie last night and it did help but at one point she did ask “so are you going to see Marge soon?” LOL so I guess that’s my sign maybe I’m not totally balanced. I guess I should feel grateful for what I have and just leave it at that, but mercy me I want so much more. See there is where the self pity is coming in… Sick isn’t it? So I will get through this I know I will I’m a SURIVIOR and a strong one in that. I know a lot of women do this… I mean millions of women do this… I don’t desire a rally many other women don’t get a rally and a parade of how great they are… but let me tell you this is definitely a new perspective on life. I need to just be grateful. So hopefully as I continue down this path for awhile I won’t offend too many by my constant whines and complaints but remember this is my journal of MY life and if you are offended then stop reading it b/c I’m going to whine and I’m going to complain… that’s part of who I AM… I VENT… and let EVERYONE know just how I feel. I don’t hold anything in even when it’s embarrassing and horrible, I am NOT a keeper never have been probably will never be. So cheers to the journey.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Update
Well I am going to try to update this thing MUCH more often b/c Tait is reading this for his update since he’s living in WI right now. So here we go… Well this past weekend we went to Landyn’s Bday party the boy is now 5 years old! Can you believe it? It doesn’t seem like he should be 5 already BUT he is. We had a birthday party at Chuckie Cheese now in my previous blog I commented that Lehna cried when we told her we were going to Chuckie Cheese b/c Lehna doesn’t like the mouse… Well we went off to Chuckie Cheese and everything was okay for about 10 seconds THEN Lehna SAW THE MOUSE! Lehna cried and cried abut seeing Chuckie… she clung to me and wouldn’t let go b/c she was so afraid. She kept asking to go home b/c she was so afraid of him. It was great fun for all those around us. So Maya and Tait went around playing the different games. Maya has the heart of a lion seriously NOTHING scares this kid. So she kept playing and having a good time. Well Lehna would just sit in the corner and just look around with big OWL eyes waiting for him to appear. After awhile she kind of relaxed and when the pizza got there she ate and just sat.
Tait was getting tired with Maya b/c she kept running and climbing and such. Maya LOVED being able to see Deklyn they would hug one another and say to one another “come on, or let go” it was really cute. They kept going back to the Dance Dance Revolution thing and just jumping on the floor, I only put a token in it once so they could dance, but they were more interested in just jumping and climbing on it.
So after awhile I went back to the table to see if we could get Lehna up and playing. I told her we would go to the very corner and as we walked she was basically clinging to my side for fear that we would see the mouse. We went back and played a couple of games and slowly she started to relax and had a good time, but the time it was time to go she was standing off playing and didn’t need to hold anyone hand, so she had a good time, at the end. Both girls were ready to go by the time we got in the car Maya was totally asleep before we even let the parking lot and Lehna followed shortly after. So at least they were worn out.
So I thought that since Lehna had fun at the end of the day she would want to go again. Well in the middle of the night Lehna woke up crying and I asked her what the problem was and she goes “I just want to go home, I don’t want to be around that mouse” So she had a night mare and she will tell you quite clearly that she doesn’t EVER want to go back to Chuckie Cheese again. So I guess her 4th Birthday won’t be held there.
So after chuckie Cheese on Sunday we went to church then took the girls to Tait’s grandmother and Helen, Tanna, and Tara watched them over night for us so we could go to WI b/c of the job interview on Monday. Well my job interview was at 2:30 so I thought that I could spend the morning looking for jobs and just kind of relaxing and getting psyched up. Well at 7:40 they called and asked if they could interview me earlier… they basically said you either come at 10:30 or we reschedule… well I was taking time off of work to come all the way to interview so I told them that I would be there at 10:30. Now the interview was in Madison, WI which was 2 hours away from where I was staying. So that was the FASTEST shower I have EVER taken. I just kept telling myself “I Hope I don’t get lost, b/c I have no margin of error” So I got the place with 30 minutes to spare so that was good and waited for the interview. The interview went okay. I would say that it probably wasn’t my best work but you know it’s hard to build a rapport with someone when she keeps saying “do you have any questions?” I barely got to talk about my professional placements she didn’t really seem interested in that. She was more interested in my past job experiences like working with Kroger and such instead of my more recent doing the job they are interviewing for experience. So that was disappointing. She kind of explained what they expect from their staffing supervisors and quite frankly I don’t think I want the job. I mean they are required to do outside sales and cold calls and etc and seriously I HATE that kind of stuff. I don’t mind Inside Sales but outside… NO THANK YOU… So I think that was a bust, darn it. So we’ll see what happens. I have another interview with another staffing company on Thursday that is over the phone. So we’ll see what happens with that. I just sucks that this is going to be the fourth interview and I have YET to get an offer… what the heck is going on? I still have a second interview set with the Racine Express in March but we’ll see what happens before that. I hope that I get something else before that time. (sigh)
I have to tell you it’s really hard to stay positive with all of this and really hard to not beat myself up with my thoughts. I guess that the right job just isn’t in the mix for me yet. But man it’s really hard to stay upbeat. I have told Tait a number of times that I do really not like myself right now. Which is kind of sad but seriously it’s hard. It’s just so hard not to feel so down about it.
The girls seem to be adjusting with the new arrangement, I mean it’s only day 2 and so far… they seem to be okay. Lehna was really happy when I picked her up from daycare and said “mommy I learned a lot today” then I asked her follow up question like “what did you learn” and her response “I don’t know” LOL she’s so cute. I also learned that the new daycare doesn’t provide lunch for the kids. SURPRISE! I am like ‘seriously why are we paying you this among of money if you are only providing snack and breakfast?’ I told Tait that so far I’m not impressed. I told him that we’ll have to see what happens the rest of the week but on the first day Lehna had a green shirt on when I dropped her off. When I picked her up she was in a white shirt and her back up clothes were missing. I asked three different people where her clothes were and no one seemed to know. So they told me that they would look for it and ask around. Well they found it it was by the kitchen door… I mean was someone going to take it home with them? I don’t know so not very impressed so far. Hopefully this will be a passing fluke and by the end of the week I will feel good and not so “shaky” about all of this. I am going to call the two women that expressed interested in doing some home daycare for awhile for me. I seriously am contemplating doing a home daycare… even though that is kind of scary but they are women from the Lafayette wards so we’ll see what happens. Maybe they will provide lunch for the kids… geeze!!!
So last night the girls were really good I put Maya to bed by 8:00 and Lehna was in bed by 8:15 I think that they need to go to bed earlier b/c they are getting up sooooo early. So hopefully the earlier bedtimes will mean happier morning times. Lehna asks everyday if she is going to see Daddy today and I keep telling her 3 more days or 2 more days. So I’m thinking about doing a number chart or something for her where she can move the thing over ever day… maybe that will help…
But that is life right now. Just getting adjusted. So keep me in your prayers hopefully it will all work itself out. I hope!!!
Tait was getting tired with Maya b/c she kept running and climbing and such. Maya LOVED being able to see Deklyn they would hug one another and say to one another “come on, or let go” it was really cute. They kept going back to the Dance Dance Revolution thing and just jumping on the floor, I only put a token in it once so they could dance, but they were more interested in just jumping and climbing on it.
So after awhile I went back to the table to see if we could get Lehna up and playing. I told her we would go to the very corner and as we walked she was basically clinging to my side for fear that we would see the mouse. We went back and played a couple of games and slowly she started to relax and had a good time, but the time it was time to go she was standing off playing and didn’t need to hold anyone hand, so she had a good time, at the end. Both girls were ready to go by the time we got in the car Maya was totally asleep before we even let the parking lot and Lehna followed shortly after. So at least they were worn out.
So I thought that since Lehna had fun at the end of the day she would want to go again. Well in the middle of the night Lehna woke up crying and I asked her what the problem was and she goes “I just want to go home, I don’t want to be around that mouse” So she had a night mare and she will tell you quite clearly that she doesn’t EVER want to go back to Chuckie Cheese again. So I guess her 4th Birthday won’t be held there.
So after chuckie Cheese on Sunday we went to church then took the girls to Tait’s grandmother and Helen, Tanna, and Tara watched them over night for us so we could go to WI b/c of the job interview on Monday. Well my job interview was at 2:30 so I thought that I could spend the morning looking for jobs and just kind of relaxing and getting psyched up. Well at 7:40 they called and asked if they could interview me earlier… they basically said you either come at 10:30 or we reschedule… well I was taking time off of work to come all the way to interview so I told them that I would be there at 10:30. Now the interview was in Madison, WI which was 2 hours away from where I was staying. So that was the FASTEST shower I have EVER taken. I just kept telling myself “I Hope I don’t get lost, b/c I have no margin of error” So I got the place with 30 minutes to spare so that was good and waited for the interview. The interview went okay. I would say that it probably wasn’t my best work but you know it’s hard to build a rapport with someone when she keeps saying “do you have any questions?” I barely got to talk about my professional placements she didn’t really seem interested in that. She was more interested in my past job experiences like working with Kroger and such instead of my more recent doing the job they are interviewing for experience. So that was disappointing. She kind of explained what they expect from their staffing supervisors and quite frankly I don’t think I want the job. I mean they are required to do outside sales and cold calls and etc and seriously I HATE that kind of stuff. I don’t mind Inside Sales but outside… NO THANK YOU… So I think that was a bust, darn it. So we’ll see what happens. I have another interview with another staffing company on Thursday that is over the phone. So we’ll see what happens with that. I just sucks that this is going to be the fourth interview and I have YET to get an offer… what the heck is going on? I still have a second interview set with the Racine Express in March but we’ll see what happens before that. I hope that I get something else before that time. (sigh)
I have to tell you it’s really hard to stay positive with all of this and really hard to not beat myself up with my thoughts. I guess that the right job just isn’t in the mix for me yet. But man it’s really hard to stay upbeat. I have told Tait a number of times that I do really not like myself right now. Which is kind of sad but seriously it’s hard. It’s just so hard not to feel so down about it.
The girls seem to be adjusting with the new arrangement, I mean it’s only day 2 and so far… they seem to be okay. Lehna was really happy when I picked her up from daycare and said “mommy I learned a lot today” then I asked her follow up question like “what did you learn” and her response “I don’t know” LOL she’s so cute. I also learned that the new daycare doesn’t provide lunch for the kids. SURPRISE! I am like ‘seriously why are we paying you this among of money if you are only providing snack and breakfast?’ I told Tait that so far I’m not impressed. I told him that we’ll have to see what happens the rest of the week but on the first day Lehna had a green shirt on when I dropped her off. When I picked her up she was in a white shirt and her back up clothes were missing. I asked three different people where her clothes were and no one seemed to know. So they told me that they would look for it and ask around. Well they found it it was by the kitchen door… I mean was someone going to take it home with them? I don’t know so not very impressed so far. Hopefully this will be a passing fluke and by the end of the week I will feel good and not so “shaky” about all of this. I am going to call the two women that expressed interested in doing some home daycare for awhile for me. I seriously am contemplating doing a home daycare… even though that is kind of scary but they are women from the Lafayette wards so we’ll see what happens. Maybe they will provide lunch for the kids… geeze!!!
So last night the girls were really good I put Maya to bed by 8:00 and Lehna was in bed by 8:15 I think that they need to go to bed earlier b/c they are getting up sooooo early. So hopefully the earlier bedtimes will mean happier morning times. Lehna asks everyday if she is going to see Daddy today and I keep telling her 3 more days or 2 more days. So I’m thinking about doing a number chart or something for her where she can move the thing over ever day… maybe that will help…
But that is life right now. Just getting adjusted. So keep me in your prayers hopefully it will all work itself out. I hope!!!
Friday, February 13, 2009
New Update
Welcome to another update… tis that time again.
Well life is kind of in a cloud right now. We got some news from our realtor that ISN’T GOOD… basically we don’t have a lot of options of what to do about our house except… not sell and stay in Indiana, foreclose, short sell, or rent… neither option I want… so I don’t know. We are “sleeping” on it right now to try to decide what to do… I don’t want to do any of the situations… and b/c of it I’m not sleeping. So so much for sleeping on it. Hopefully a way will be provided… I freaking hope.
So that’s what’s going on there… On the up side I do have a job interview on Monday. So hopefully that will go well. I hope… I am kind of nervous about it… it’s for a different company, similar job but different company much bigger. So we’ll see what happens. Hopefully I will stay relaxed and knock them dead.
Let me see what else is going on. Lehna and Maya start their new daycare on Tuesday instead of Monday, just slight change in plans b/c of job interview. So that will be okay and that will mean the first week at their daycare they will only have 4 days. You know that will be fun I hope that next week goes okay. Tait goes north and I stay here… I know there are a lot of women that do this the single mom thing… I’m just not really looking forward to it, but we’ll see what happens.
Big plans for the weekend. Not so much. Landyn’s Birthday party is Saturday and we told Lehna it was going to be at Chuckie Cheese and she cried… which I thought was kind of funny. But she is afraid of the mouse… well the guy in the mouse suit. She’s not a fan… so she might not be ready for Disney World… LOL
Oh Lehna did earn her self a BIG time out last night. We were getting ready for bed and I go Lehna it’s bed time and she goes “oh man I was just about to tell you about my Fing dream” and I was like ‘OH NO YOU DIDN’T LITTLE GIRL” and put her in time out… I didn’t get crazy b/c I didn’t want her to think it was funny. I mean we kind of snicker when she says like Darn and Heck… but this one… I don’t want her dropping at Church!!! LOL So after she came out of time out I asked her why she was put in time out and she goes “b/c I said fing” LOL and I said yes and that is a word that you CANNOT say… LOL crack me up. Tait goes “do you think there is a kid at daycare with a potty mouth or do you think it’s from us?” and I was like “hua yeah…” LOL I know some people love it when little kids cuss but mercy me… I didn’t expect the f bomb. So I will be removing that work from my vocab for awhile…
On Sunday Tait and I are going to head up to Wisconsin. Helen is going to watch them and then after the interview I’m going to pick them up and get them home. I figure on Monday I will probably have to drive a good solid 12 hours… so that will be a LONG day… But such is the price for success.
But that is what’s going on around here… nothing too exciting.
Hopefully I will take pictures and then put them up next week from the bday party.
Well life is kind of in a cloud right now. We got some news from our realtor that ISN’T GOOD… basically we don’t have a lot of options of what to do about our house except… not sell and stay in Indiana, foreclose, short sell, or rent… neither option I want… so I don’t know. We are “sleeping” on it right now to try to decide what to do… I don’t want to do any of the situations… and b/c of it I’m not sleeping. So so much for sleeping on it. Hopefully a way will be provided… I freaking hope.
So that’s what’s going on there… On the up side I do have a job interview on Monday. So hopefully that will go well. I hope… I am kind of nervous about it… it’s for a different company, similar job but different company much bigger. So we’ll see what happens. Hopefully I will stay relaxed and knock them dead.
Let me see what else is going on. Lehna and Maya start their new daycare on Tuesday instead of Monday, just slight change in plans b/c of job interview. So that will be okay and that will mean the first week at their daycare they will only have 4 days. You know that will be fun I hope that next week goes okay. Tait goes north and I stay here… I know there are a lot of women that do this the single mom thing… I’m just not really looking forward to it, but we’ll see what happens.
Big plans for the weekend. Not so much. Landyn’s Birthday party is Saturday and we told Lehna it was going to be at Chuckie Cheese and she cried… which I thought was kind of funny. But she is afraid of the mouse… well the guy in the mouse suit. She’s not a fan… so she might not be ready for Disney World… LOL
Oh Lehna did earn her self a BIG time out last night. We were getting ready for bed and I go Lehna it’s bed time and she goes “oh man I was just about to tell you about my Fing dream” and I was like ‘OH NO YOU DIDN’T LITTLE GIRL” and put her in time out… I didn’t get crazy b/c I didn’t want her to think it was funny. I mean we kind of snicker when she says like Darn and Heck… but this one… I don’t want her dropping at Church!!! LOL So after she came out of time out I asked her why she was put in time out and she goes “b/c I said fing” LOL and I said yes and that is a word that you CANNOT say… LOL crack me up. Tait goes “do you think there is a kid at daycare with a potty mouth or do you think it’s from us?” and I was like “hua yeah…” LOL I know some people love it when little kids cuss but mercy me… I didn’t expect the f bomb. So I will be removing that work from my vocab for awhile…
On Sunday Tait and I are going to head up to Wisconsin. Helen is going to watch them and then after the interview I’m going to pick them up and get them home. I figure on Monday I will probably have to drive a good solid 12 hours… so that will be a LONG day… But such is the price for success.
But that is what’s going on around here… nothing too exciting.
Hopefully I will take pictures and then put them up next week from the bday party.
Friday, February 06, 2009
An Update With PICTURES!
Here’s another update.
This past weekend we went up to Wisconsin b/c I had a job interview for the same company I work with here but it’s just north… Well I interviewed… I don’t think I did very well the guy was really hot then cold… at one point we talked about setting up another meeting with his GM when I’m up there next… then at the very end he said “well you have all the skill necessary and I think you would do well, I just wish I was hiring” So I don’t know what the heck that supposed to mean… I mean I thought I did well… apparently not… sooooo on Monday I meet with the people for the job center in Wisconsin and well I took the clerical written test at the beginning of Jan and my test results STILL aren’t in… and probably will be another 2 weeks or so… and so I took the clerical testing and meet with one of the ladies there… she tells me that my typing is the fastest she has seen in 2 years (so yeah for me) but she said that after I get the written results it could be another 2 months before a department contacts me… so YEAH… So basically it was a bust. I’m still applying to companies like CRAZY but I’m not finding anything… I mean seriously nothing… I don’t know it’s all so up in the air right now.
On the home front. Jackie my darling sister in law has volunteered herself to help me around our house this weekend to get the house ready… I know I keep saying that… but since I stayed on till Monday this past week I wasn’t able to get everything ready for the realtor and to be honest with you I need to her to REALLY positive and if she sees my house in it’s “current” state she is NOT going to be positive… and that’s not what I need… I need positive vibes… So she is coming next week… at least that is the plan.
The girls were great all weekend. Helen and Tim really enjoyed seeing them. We meet up with Terry and mom on Saturday at Discovery World and that was a really cool place… I really enjoy it. So we went there and had lunch with tem and then they gave us the girls’ Christmas gifts… now Lehna was sooo cute… she goes ‘today is my luckiest day, I got to see Nana and Papal & I got presents’ she is so candid. Well Lehna and Maya totally enjoyed their gifts… Maya LOVES baby dolls… loves hem and mom got her a really pretty doll well Maya after she saw it was a doll ripped open the plastic on the doll and kept repeating “baby, baby, baby” it was very cute!!! Lehna got a Hannah Montana doll that sings a song that is REALLY loud… and you can’t really hear what she says… and she got a microphone… she LOVES it… she’s such a ham anyways.. .this just added more fuel to her fire. Maya also got a Dora book and coloring book and she LOVES Dora so it was a good match for her. So thank you mom & Terry they loved it.
Well one stress has been lifted “well sort of” okay so the girls have been going to daycare in Crawfordsville and Tait had been picking them up and dropping tem off the whole thing… well Tait is going to be leaving on the 16th and well… I work 7-4 so getting them to daycare has really been a major concern for me… b/c I didn’t think that getting them up and AT day care by 6 am and then get myself to work by 7 was going to be possible I mean picking them up in time would work… but then that would be like 11 hours of them at daycare… I thought would be horrible… totally horrible… So I was able to find a daycare in Lafayette that is going to match what we are currently paying... b/c daycare are SOOOOO much more expensive here then they are in Crawfordsville I was really starting to get stressed about it. So this was a good relief for me… now I have seen the daycare it’s VERY VERY small… I MEAN REALLY small…. SO I am glad this is a temporary thing… B/c I don’t think long term they could stay here… I mean the current daycare is so much bigger and better so it’s going to be interesting… but we’ll see what happens… all I have is time right now… so I will adjust to the time…
The girls are getting prepared for all the new changes that are going to be happening to them. I’m really worried about them. I am really concerned on how they are going to react to a new day care and ten having Tait gone. It’s going to be pretty stressful for the next couple of months. I think it will be good for Tait and me but it’s still stressful. I hope all goes well. But I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us and I put faith that we will all be happy in the end. I take great faith in that.
Well Young Women’s we had our New Beginnings plan and let me tell you it was very much a success. What we did was we had the parents try to “earn their medallion” the reason for this was… we tried to illustrate to the parents that in order to earn their necklace it takes a lot of work and it’s time consuming… and I think it went really well. I made personal progress books with each value with two different options, that took a lot of time, but I think it really went over well so that makes me feel good. I don’t know what’s going to happen once Tait goes north… I mean I am supposed to be there once a month for the activity but I’m worried b/c of the kids and what am I going to do with them… but I’m sure that an answer will come to me eventually. I really want to keep my calling but we’ll see what happens.
That’s life right now… just getting ready for change and preparing everyone for it. It’s going to be really hard without Tait but I know that again God will provide, and hopefully provide us a way. So my loving relatives… if I call you b/c I have been with the girls for 9 days straight and I’m ready to climb the walls… please help okay… LOL J/k I’m sure I’ll be fine J Hopefully it gets warm FAST so we can spend a lot of time at the park.
This past weekend we went up to Wisconsin b/c I had a job interview for the same company I work with here but it’s just north… Well I interviewed… I don’t think I did very well the guy was really hot then cold… at one point we talked about setting up another meeting with his GM when I’m up there next… then at the very end he said “well you have all the skill necessary and I think you would do well, I just wish I was hiring” So I don’t know what the heck that supposed to mean… I mean I thought I did well… apparently not… sooooo on Monday I meet with the people for the job center in Wisconsin and well I took the clerical written test at the beginning of Jan and my test results STILL aren’t in… and probably will be another 2 weeks or so… and so I took the clerical testing and meet with one of the ladies there… she tells me that my typing is the fastest she has seen in 2 years (so yeah for me) but she said that after I get the written results it could be another 2 months before a department contacts me… so YEAH… So basically it was a bust. I’m still applying to companies like CRAZY but I’m not finding anything… I mean seriously nothing… I don’t know it’s all so up in the air right now.
On the home front. Jackie my darling sister in law has volunteered herself to help me around our house this weekend to get the house ready… I know I keep saying that… but since I stayed on till Monday this past week I wasn’t able to get everything ready for the realtor and to be honest with you I need to her to REALLY positive and if she sees my house in it’s “current” state she is NOT going to be positive… and that’s not what I need… I need positive vibes… So she is coming next week… at least that is the plan.
The girls were great all weekend. Helen and Tim really enjoyed seeing them. We meet up with Terry and mom on Saturday at Discovery World and that was a really cool place… I really enjoy it. So we went there and had lunch with tem and then they gave us the girls’ Christmas gifts… now Lehna was sooo cute… she goes ‘today is my luckiest day, I got to see Nana and Papal & I got presents’ she is so candid. Well Lehna and Maya totally enjoyed their gifts… Maya LOVES baby dolls… loves hem and mom got her a really pretty doll well Maya after she saw it was a doll ripped open the plastic on the doll and kept repeating “baby, baby, baby” it was very cute!!! Lehna got a Hannah Montana doll that sings a song that is REALLY loud… and you can’t really hear what she says… and she got a microphone… she LOVES it… she’s such a ham anyways.. .this just added more fuel to her fire. Maya also got a Dora book and coloring book and she LOVES Dora so it was a good match for her. So thank you mom & Terry they loved it.
Well one stress has been lifted “well sort of” okay so the girls have been going to daycare in Crawfordsville and Tait had been picking them up and dropping tem off the whole thing… well Tait is going to be leaving on the 16th and well… I work 7-4 so getting them to daycare has really been a major concern for me… b/c I didn’t think that getting them up and AT day care by 6 am and then get myself to work by 7 was going to be possible I mean picking them up in time would work… but then that would be like 11 hours of them at daycare… I thought would be horrible… totally horrible… So I was able to find a daycare in Lafayette that is going to match what we are currently paying... b/c daycare are SOOOOO much more expensive here then they are in Crawfordsville I was really starting to get stressed about it. So this was a good relief for me… now I have seen the daycare it’s VERY VERY small… I MEAN REALLY small…. SO I am glad this is a temporary thing… B/c I don’t think long term they could stay here… I mean the current daycare is so much bigger and better so it’s going to be interesting… but we’ll see what happens… all I have is time right now… so I will adjust to the time…
The girls are getting prepared for all the new changes that are going to be happening to them. I’m really worried about them. I am really concerned on how they are going to react to a new day care and ten having Tait gone. It’s going to be pretty stressful for the next couple of months. I think it will be good for Tait and me but it’s still stressful. I hope all goes well. But I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us and I put faith that we will all be happy in the end. I take great faith in that.
Well Young Women’s we had our New Beginnings plan and let me tell you it was very much a success. What we did was we had the parents try to “earn their medallion” the reason for this was… we tried to illustrate to the parents that in order to earn their necklace it takes a lot of work and it’s time consuming… and I think it went really well. I made personal progress books with each value with two different options, that took a lot of time, but I think it really went over well so that makes me feel good. I don’t know what’s going to happen once Tait goes north… I mean I am supposed to be there once a month for the activity but I’m worried b/c of the kids and what am I going to do with them… but I’m sure that an answer will come to me eventually. I really want to keep my calling but we’ll see what happens.
That’s life right now… just getting ready for change and preparing everyone for it. It’s going to be really hard without Tait but I know that again God will provide, and hopefully provide us a way. So my loving relatives… if I call you b/c I have been with the girls for 9 days straight and I’m ready to climb the walls… please help okay… LOL J/k I’m sure I’ll be fine J Hopefully it gets warm FAST so we can spend a lot of time at the park.
