Trains, Trains, Trains

So our son is OVER THE MOON about Trains. He just loves them. He isn’t partial to what type of trains, Thomas, Chuggington, generic, Dora, he simply doesn’t care. What he wants is TRAINS and lots of them. The boy of ours loves to watch the trains go round and round… and he can do this for HOURS. He is okay just watching the train gives him such pleasure.


This weekend I was watching him laid on the floor watch the trains. I don’t know if he is imagining what he is doing on the train, or if he is just enjoying watching them go around and around. I took some pictures of it. He just loves the trains so much.

He got Chuggington on DVD so he wanted to watch that. He also loves cars as well. He will push them around and around and kind of make some noises. He just loves to play with anything he can push. He just plays on his side. He is such a sweetie.

Christmas is over :(

Well Christmas is over. In another 364 days we will be doing this all over again. It sounds so very far away when you say this in days because it seems SO far away, but like this year it will go by fast I'm certain.

So in Christmas Recap~

So we did a little traveling for Christmas. We went for a FAST trip to Indiana from Saturday - Sunday, staying at the hotel. The kids love staying at hotels, it is probably one of the strangest things. But they got to swim and see their cousins. Helen and Tim got us the hotel stay for our Christmas present. So it was good being able to go and see them. We went swimming a couple of times and the kids liked that. So at bedtime we were in the suite there at the Best Western so we had a king's sized bed and there was a little "living" room off of the bedroom. Well the girls slept on the floor and Nikolai was on the floor in our room initially until he woke up. This kid, who normally sleeps GREAT through the night, was up 3 times. So we put him in the bed with us. BIG mistake, he is part kangaroo he kicked me all night long, and it wasn't just a gentle kick it was BOTH FEET FULL FORCE in my gut, back, side... it didn't matter b/c he was going to kick... and he did. He wedged himself between us horizontally and I got his feet. He was ALL OVER the bed... it was not such a good night. After our stay at the hotel we went to see Tim and Helen's new house. It was nice it had enough room for all of their things and such. We had lunch there and we went back home. We wanted to get home because there was so much to get accomplished this weekend. So we got home and got things accomplished!

On Christmas Eve Tait went shopping for all of our menu items that I had planned for Christmas dinner. The kids I think enjoyed being home and being able to play with their toys. They were able to open one gift on Christmas Eve and we let them do that before lunch so all afternoon they played. Lehna had gotten Nikolai a Thomas the Train track and play set and he LOVED it, he watched the train go around in circles for hours. Maya opened the gift she already knew she was getting, the Lalaloopsy doll. And Lehna opened slippers and spa set for feet. They liked playing with all of their toys and of course they got new Pjs for Christmas morning. Here are some pictures of the happy kids.

We had an application on my Kindle that we were able to see where Santa was delivering all of the gifts, so we could track him. Tait had told the girls before they went to sleep that they needed to come get us in the morning before going in the front room. Tait likes to see their faces. So Maya woke up at 5:30 in the morning asking to see if she could see where Santa was... we pulled up the app and he had him laying in a hammock on the beach, and it just said Santa's journey is complete, than she wanted to know if he had come to our house... I told her to go look and Tait took her to the front room. She came back in our room all excited. Tait told her now she would have to wait until Lehna and Nikolai got up. So he told her she needed to go back to sleep. I told him he should just turn on cartoons b/c her returning to sleep was NOT going to happen. So at 6 am Lehna came in our room, rubbing her eyes and Maya promptly told her that Santa had delivered presents to our house and so she wanted to go out and look at them. Then at 6:30 Nikolai woke up. Our kids are early birds. So we went in the front room together and the carnage began.

Lehna wanted a guitar SOOOO badly... so she did get one... I however broke it when I was tuning it...  I over tightened the string... so she is getting a replacement tonight :(  Bad mommy

Nikolai was NOT interested in opening anything. Tait had opened a train as the first gift and that's all he was focused on he wanted it out of the package and that was it. So after the girls opened all of their gifts they helped their little brother by opening his gifts, they are thoughtful.

 

So they were pretty busy all day. They played and played and we watched Christmas movies and I listened to Christmas music. Tait and I made Christmas dinner and we just really enjoyed being together. It was bitter sweet. I defiantly enjoy being with family and friends, but this was really nice just being able to be home and not having to jam in the car and drive it was just really nice. The kids got to play with their toys and enjoy each other. It was really a nice day.

 

Nikolai LOVES this trains. I'm going to do a separate entry for his train’s b/c he LOVES them and I have pictures to upload.

But it was a really nice Christmas. I did miss seeing my family and hopefully we can get down seeing them again soon.

So enjoy the pictures..

Tid bits I forgot

Well I wanted to update as I had forgotten to say a couple of things in my update yesterday so I thought I would tack it on here. So we are only 7 days away from Christmas and Maya has been the one keeping track. She has been using the mouse advent calendar moving him over every day. Last night she said she was going to move him over tonight b/c she didn’t want anyone to have to do it in the morning. She is very thoughtful my little Maya. One of her gifts from Nikolai was wrapped pretty poorly (by me) and Niki fell on it and it opened on the side and it displayed what was inside. Well she asked Lehna was inside and of course she told her so Maya than asked for 3 hours straight if she could go ahead and open it b/c she already knows what’s in there so it would be good if we just let her open it. We are getting our layaway out of Wednesday to get all that ready to go. I have like a million things that still need to be wrapped but I don’t really know what to do with them so I’m not wrapping them yet. I had stocking stuffers already brought and a few things for under the tree, but the big stuff was still in layaway. I defiantly think that is the best way to go Christmas shopping for us. Of course they are getting no clothes so I feel badly about that but it will be okay. Lehna is into getting gift cards right now. For her birthday she wanted Tait to take her to Target and get her a bunch of gift cards so she could shop. I don’t know if she thinks that they are credit cards or what. We don’t use credit cards but I don’t know if that’s what she thinks they are or what. It’s a crazy thing. So I want to get a few just for her stocking b/c I think she would really like that. I could get her a couple for Kohl’s if I go to like CVS or something like that where they sell different names but I don’t know. I like being done. There is always “something else you could get”.

So we will be doing some traveling over the holidays. I think we are going to stop by for the weekend in Indiana and then come back. So I need to have everything was done as possible as far as getting tape and wrapping paper b/c on the 24th I want to bake cookies with the girls and those kind of activities. We are going to be getting our holiday menu so that will be fun too. I’m excited about having Monday and Tuesday off so that will be fun but that means we have to shove holiday food shopping on Monday, which as long as there are stores open we should be fine  I just want to get my list ready to on Monday or Sunday we will be ready to get things for baking and eating  We also have to get stuff for cookies for Santa… again looking NOT to do sugar cookies… So this weekend we made turtles for the girls’ teachers for school and they were super easy to make. But I was planning on dipping pretzels in chocolate for“filler” in the box but let me tell you that did NOT work out. I SUCK at melting chocolate; I burn the stuff in a double boiler that’s how bad I am. So this time… I made the mistake of adding butter to the chocolate thinking that it would make the chocolate creamer nope that didn’t happen it turned it to fudge and not even good fudge it was horrible. I just don’t do chocolate dipped anything well. So I will NOT be looking for a recipe for dipping for the cookies for Santa this year. I am not a pastry chef to any stretch of the imagination.

So Tim has been at our home for the last week packing up his and Helen’s stuff for the move to Indiana and I can tell you I don’t think he has been having very much fun. There is a lot of stuff but in the in course of moving we have found some things we thought were gone forever. One thing I Found was a gift certificate for the Flair a spa and hair studio here that Tait got me back in 2010!!! So I called them and asked them if I could still use it and they said YES! I was so thrilled so I scheduled that and got that done yesterday. That was sooooo wonderful. They are truly on my favorite things in life. I can just relax and get pampered. My muscles were so nice and relaxed last night and my skin smelled so good and soft. It was wonderful. I didn’t want to take a shower this morning b/c I knew it would wash it all away, but my skin was still soft it didn’t smell as good, but it was still soft. So I want to keep it up by constantly applying lotion so I can keep it as soft as she got it, b/c it was soooo soft last night. So I enjoyed that little find. But we also found 2 more gift cards! We found a Barnes and Nobel gift card AND an I tunes gift card so we are going to be using those up. So it was like a little Christmas gift for us. 

Well basically that’s it for now. I know I know nothing exciting just little things that I forgot to add.

Update, it's a little heavy to begin with...

I have to say I’m kind of at a loss of words. I don’t know how to start. I am truly sad by what happened in CT this last week. It breaks my heart to think of all of those innocent spirits that were taken without given the chance to have a full and happy life. It is truly amazing how twisted the human mind can get and how sick people truly are that people are not able to get the help they require. Heavenly Father was welcoming all of those beautiful spirits into his arms on the Friday morning to a place where they didn’t fear, they felt no pain, and were welcomed home by wondrous angels. As I went home on Friday afternoon after listening to the news all day on my computer, I streamed the live feed so I would have the latest information, I didn’t know what I should talk to the girls about. I followed the advice of an expert that said that depending on the ages of your children, and knowing your children, you shouldn’t involve them to much in this information. So after talking it over with Tait we didn’t have our TV turned on Friday night. They were not exposed to what happened on Friday. I feel that this is the best decision for them. I have started wondering about my child’s on safety at school now and thinking about how they open the door at their school and hoping that some changes will come down the line. I will gladly show my identification before entering the school as I feel any parent will now not have a problem with this as the recent events that have occurred. As Tait and I talked they buzz anyone in the door without us showing any kind of identification or anything of that nature. As we have always had business at the school, I don’t know what they do when you don’t have a child to pick up at the school so I’m unsure of what the polices will entail as we move forward. It does make me worry as to the safety of my children in their school as what happened in CT could have happened anywhere. I did find myself on Monday morning signing up for the active shooter training that we have offered here at the Job Center. I will be taking the course on Wednesday so I can prepare myself and my family if this were to happen if we were around we would be more knowledgeable in the senior. So my heart feels such sadness for those parents that have had their children taken from them. I also am sad for the spouses and family members of the adults that were taken away. All of the us are morning with you. Take comfort in knowing that they are now in happiness and can be with you constantly watching you and loving you. They are only a memory away. Death is only temporary and you will be with them once again, take knowledge in knowing that they are still with you.




When I went home and hugged my kids a little tighter on Friday. Even sending them off to school today, I still have a little pit at my tummy hoping that everything goes okay today. Our world is filled with evil and dangers and I hope that the spirit will bless them today and keep them save. It’s a shame when you have to worry about the safety of your children at school, mall, or movie theater. On this world we are faced with such terrible things we are filled with people around us that want to destroy the things we cherish the most. As we enter this Christmas season I know that since I have the knowledge of the atonement and the blessings of the savior that regardless we can be together again if we choose. I thank heavenly father for that ability to have that blessing. So we will work here on this earth to be good guides to our children. We will continue to raise our children and righteous and teach them right from wrong. I know these are choices I struggle with as well but again with the knowledge and guidance I can be the teacher that they need us to be.



I will now switch gears, I just wanted to express how I was feeling about the recent tragedies.



Miss Maya the helper. I have to tell you that Maya is probably my most aware child that I have ever seen. I have had a killer headache for the past 4 days and so I have spent a lot of time laying in my room in the darkness, not trying to sleep, but just to make the throbbing stop. Well yesterday Miss Maya came into our room and goes “oh mommy is asleep” and she scampered off. A few minutes later we heard knocking on the basement door. Tait opened the door and she had carried a basket full of clothes (that were dry) upstairs and had folded them, the best she could. She than told Tait that she wanted to help mommy since she was sleeping. She then went over to the dish washer and emptied out all the clean dishes and put them away. She said she really wants to help out since mommy didn’t feel good. She really was just over the top sweet to do those things for me since my head was killing me. She also just laid with me when I was laying down and asking me if I needed anything. I am so very grateful for having such a sweet little spirit.



So as we move into the new year I have really been thinking about some things, that I want to do. The first thing that I want to do is train for a 10K again. I have figured out it will take me 15 weeks to complete the program again. So I have found a race in Hartford that will happen that Tait and I are going to register for and do. We figured this would be perfect b/c we would be able to have mom and Terry watch the kids for us while we raced. I’m so excited about it. We start training next week and we are back to the hard core of it. We want to get back in running shape and we can do it. It’s a pretty basic program and it works. I would like to do the 10K under 45 minutes. That’s my goal. So we have that set out on the calendar and we are going to start working towards that goal. I am feeling like things are starting to come back under control again.



I am starting to set goals for myself and I’m starting to work on some internal things as well. I am working on being more aware of problems that I have and improving myself. I feel as if I’m walking down the right path again… at least I’m on the path before I just felt like I was sitting spinning. So here we go.

Only 11 days till Christmas!

Okay so I’m starting to sound a bit like my children with the countdown… but I’m very excited about Christmas this year. I think its b/c I really enjoy watching my kids open their treasures and getting really excited about what they have received. Maya did peek at one of her gifts already, it had a hole in the package then Nikolai jumped on it and so it opened the top of it and Maya was VERY excited. She than asked the rest of the evening if she could open it and she was told NO!!! Between the girls asking about their gifts and opening I’ll be glad when they do get to open their gifts. Next year there will be no putting of the gifts EARLY under the Christmas tree because I think that just spurs more asking…


Well Tim and Helen are slowly starting to remove their items from our house. It’s quite the process. Tim came this week to help pack and load another car load. I have a feeling that getting all of the items is going to take some time. But he is taking the clothes out of the closet so that will mean we can move our clothes to the closet, just not our dressers  The master bedroom upstairs the closets are much smaller than the one we have down stairs (which is pretty small) so we are only going to move some of our clothes upstairs and leave some of them downstairs… probably all of my summer clothing will remain down stairs and my dresses (since I don’t wear them very often). I will be really excited when we get to move our dressers inside and then we will be able to move the desk in from outside so I can have a place to do my make up every day. So that will be fun  Baby steps that’s all we go right now.

The kids have been hyped up all week. The beginning of the week both girls came home “sick” on Monday. I personally think they had the case of the Mondays. B/c neither of them acted very sick by the time they came home. But overall their behavior has been wild! It’s the holidays I’m sure but mercy me they are just wild sometimes. Maya has started playing with Nikolai a LOT more which is kind of fun that they are able to play with one another but the issue that I’m finding is Maya plays a lot rougher with Nikolai so he tends to get pushed down more so we are constantly reminding her that you have to be careful with him. Of course Nikolai just comes right back with the pushing or the head thump. He is a boy boy afterall.

So the weekend plans are to try to get the kids to see Santa. We are going to look in the “Get Out” section in the paper and hopefully we can catch him somewhere in the area. Hopefully it will be FREE b/c free is always better. I think we are planning on a date night, which will be a ton of fun! I love date nights. There is this restaurant that is just down the street from our house. It’s kind of a mix cuisine called “Twisted Cuisine” and there are all kinds of different things there. Like their will be Ostrich or Crab pumpkin soup, they mix flavors. It’s very good and different. We got there about once a quarter b/c the change the menu with every season, so you don’t get the same thing every time you go. We try to do local businesses around our little town b/c we get so warn out with the chain restaurants. We have found that if we “save” the local businesses for date night, it makes it more special for date nights and we take the kids to the chains. 

So this week we had a carry in by the supervisors in the division and one of the supervisors made these turtle treats that I’m going to make this weekend. They were so yummy. The recipe includes:

-pretzel

-Rollo

-Pecans

Take the Pretzel and put on a cookie sheet, put the Rollo on top, put in the oven at 350 for 4 minutes, once chocolate is starting to melt, take pecan and push down in the center of Rollo… that’s it… they are SOOOO YUMMY and EASY! So I’m going to have the kids help me make some… Maybe this will be my Christmas gift for my neighbors since I ate their turtles I brought for them last weekend 

I have to start getting stuff gathered for next weekend since it will be a Christmas weekend. I want to have some fun crafts for the kids to do. They love doing crafts and I think it will be fun. We normally do Christmas cookies. Last year I bought the rolled dough and I cut them into circles (yeah exciting right) they decorated them with icing and sprinkles. I would prefer NOT to do these kind of cookies only b/c they really aren’t my favorite. I am just trying to think of some kind of cookie that the kids can “decorate” or help make but not this particular kind of cookie, so if there are any ideas out there. I’m open.

So that’s life as we know it right now. Christmas shopping is complete and just getting ready for my holiday menus. I think we have decided we will not be heading anywhere for Christmas instead we will wait until after the holidays and travel than. I mean if we are not going to be there for Christmas just makes it another trip another time. Maybe we will mail the gifts that would be fun for them to get something in the mail. So we’ll figure something out.

Christmas Shopping Done!

Well it’s time for another update. I can officially say I’m DONE Christmas shopping. I finished yesterday. The last person that I had to shop for was my niece and got her all done! The kids were able to shop for each other and that was a lot of fun. I took each kid one by one to get their Christmas gifts and that was fun seeing what they wanted to get for one another. Lehna and Maya were both great on their individual shopping trips. I took each child to their own store to pick their gifts out; I did this to allow them different options. It was good because as they were shopping for each other, they were also shopping for themselves so I was able to see what they were interested in. Maya already knew what she was getting her brother as she tried to get it for him a few weeks ago when we saw it in the store. The girls were actually easier than I thought they would be. Nikolai was kind of a challenge not b/c he doesn’t have interests but finding what he wanted at the stores we went to was more difficult. Nikolai on his shopping trip was horrible. I had to stop at Hallmark to get the ornaments for the kids and Nikolai was AWFUL. He has hit his terrible twos and he’s not even two yet. He ran away from me and kept reaching for very breakable things. When we went to Marshal’s to get something for Lehna I had to let him carry around a train to get him to sit still in the cart. Insanity he’s not even two yet! Maybe this means since he’s getting into it early he’ll be out of the stage quickly, I hope!


So I love snow during Christmas time. I am ready for it to snow anytime. I love having snow during the winter time. It doesn’t even bother me if it’s before or after Christmas. I just love snow for Christmas. I like being a snuggly warm in my sweater and enjoying watching the snow fall on Christmas. It just makes it so much more Christmassy. I love the snow during December and January verses March or April. I don’t even mind snow in February as long as it’s EARLY in the month and not late.

So we are all set and ready for Christmas. I still have all my wrapping to do, but at least my Christmas treasures are bought. It’s hard to believe that Christmas is only 15 days away. We still haven’t decided what we are going to do as far as going to Indiana for Christmas, we might go before Christmas, but I kind of feel like if we do that why don’t we just go another time. I mean what’s the difference if we aren’t going on Christmas any way. So we’ll figure it out.

The girls had a friend stay over on Friday night and let me tell you that was crazy times. Our neighbor came over as well so we had 4 little girls running around with a little boy trying to tag along as best as he could. It was LOUD to say the least. I swear my kids are part deaf the way the yell and have the level of the TV. I understand that they talk so LOUD so they have to turn up the TV to hear it it’s all a cycle… but mercy it was loud. We kept kicking them down stairs to the toy room but that would only last for a few short minutes and they would be back up. We turned on Brave for them and I went down to offer to paint nails, which were an interesting activity. Mila (Lehna’s friend) insisted that red and bright pink was not for “little girls” b/c her mom told her that “it just doesn’t look good on kids.” Probably a way of having her kids stay out of her nail polish I would imagine. Then my girls insisted that there wasn’t anything WRONG with it… so I had to ref that discussion. I need to teach them to be more tolerant of people and for them to just ignore the other person’s differences. This seems to come up a lot for some reason. Maybe it’s just a kid thing, I don’t know, maybe most kids are like this.

So work has been pretty busy. It seems like there are lots of teenagers getting into trouble right now. We were kind of slow with new petitions (new charges against teenagers) but right now things are really busy. We are learning new things in our office. We are progressing to “scanning” you would think this is brand new stuff. I mean seriously this technology is NOT new. But I work with a bunch of women that this is just REALLY new to them and let’s just say it’s kind of scary for them. So I’m kind of leading the charge as to getting everyone trained and making everyone comfortable. I keep trying to down play it as “it’s really not as difficult as you think it will be, you’ll see”. They don’t trust me, yet. So it’s been kind of fun doing new things. I am still working on getting my manual together because ultimately I’m learning the role of this position to train someone new. Kind of dumb I don’t know why they just don’t keep the responsibilities to me, but it’s a split position and the other department wants to hire the person like yesterday and well let’s just say that my department wants to go a little slower, especially since we are not through learning everything yet. So it’s again transition.

I have to tell you I have starting to become a crock pot queen. I have found some really good recipes via the crock pot and some really bad ones too. I’m looking for any other crock pot recipes. I really enjoy coming home and just eating rather than having to cook. It’s wonderful starting it in the morning than leaving. So if anyone has any ideas let me know  Tait and I have been doing really well with menu planning and the more options that I have the better. It helps us not have to live out of a box all the time. I have been on Crockin Girls which they have a few things that have been good, but some really bad things too. So even websites I’m willing to check out. I have been working on getting a book of all of our favorite things and that has been really nice coming up with new things and remembering them when we are going a blank when we create our menus for the week. So I’m open to suggestions. Well that’s all I have for now. Enjoy!

It’s DECEMBER!

I have to say it seems like the end of the year just goes faster and faster every year. We have our tree up in our home, lights on the bushes outside, and Christmas stickers on the front door we are VERY festive in our home. It only took like 2 hours total to do everything. This year was a bit more fun decorating the tree because the girls actually wanted to help, and they did most of the decorating. Nikolai on the other hand really just wanted to take the ornaments off the tree. At one point I looked over at him and he was chewing on one of them. I am much bummed b/c I can’t find one of my boxes of outside lights, that also holds my tree skirt in it as well. So our tree is “naked” underneath… oh well. We have decided this will be our final year for this tree and will be getting a new tree next year. Over half of the lights failed to come on this year (it’s prelit) and it’s just time to get a new tree. So we will be looking at sales for after Christmas for next year. So that means next year we will have a new tree. It’s kind of a bitter sweet because this is the first tree Tait and I got when we first lived together. But the next tree we will have will be our first “family” tree that we pick out together, so it’s okay.

So the kids are so very excited about Santa coming. Lehna has been on the fence as to if she is a believer or not. She did write a letter to Santa about the things that she wanted. So she’s just trying to decide if she should believe. I can’t decide if I should tell her the truth or not. She has these kids in her class (I swear ever since Kindergarten, they have been in the same class) but they must be Jehovah’s witnesses and she said that “they don’t celebrate anything” and have told her that there isn’t a Santa. Which shame on the parents for not teaching their kids about other people still believe so it’s not something you should tell other children, or maybe they did, who knows?

We are done with Christmas shopping I have a feeling it’s going to be a good Christmas for the kids. We usually go overboard and I think we scaled back enough that I think they will enjoy everything that they received. I didn’t get any outfits or clothing for them this year. I told Tait that with Lehna being the size that she is she really needs to be with me to shop for clothes. And well Maya doesn’t need another piece of clothing and Nikolai I am kind of waiting to see what size he will need over the next few months. He’s in 24 months right now, but 2T is WAY too big for him yet and I don’t know if it will be super cold when he gets into 2T or if will be spring time. We are just getting things as we need. So it’s all fine.

There is this tradition that they celebrate in Wisconsin, which I’m sure they celebrate in other places as well, I just haven’t heard of this before but that St. Nick comes to visit on the night of the 5th of December checking in with the boys and girls and leaving toys in their stocking… But he’s different from Santa… this is celebrated in Northern Europe. It’s all the rage here I personally think it’s a little strange but whatever. So he’s coming to visit tonight. The ladies that I work with were talking about all the little things that their kids are getting from St. Nick tonight… So we are doing simple and easy: letters and ring pops done.

The girls starting going to before and after school care at CLC verses the baby sitter. We did this for a couple of reasons first the kids were hard to get transported over to the babysitters house everyday and second we didn’t have a place to put them in the morning. We had a family that was willing to watch them in the morning, but in the week they were watching them they were late 3 times in one week. So we decided we couldn’t continue this way. So it’s $5 a day whether you use afternoon, before or both so we are just utilizing the school. Maya had a bad day at CLC yesterday apparently she got yelled at because she opened the door because her dad was on the way up to the door. She threw a HUGE fit and stated she wasn’t going back. So after a discussion with her she agreed to go again but I wrote notes to both her teacher and the CLC teacher hopefully this will be a more positive experience for her, I don’t like the idea she doesn’t like it, but I’m kind of stuck… and I figure she will get over it eventually.

The baby sitter seems to still be working out. Nikolai has been going to Monica’s house for about 3 weeks now and so far it’s okay. Monica really enjoys having him and I think she’s pretty attached to him. We have finally figured out a solution to my poor son’s butt. I know I know the life of parenthood. The poor kid has the most sensitive skin I have EVER seen. He has eczema, which is pretty typical for kids… but this kid every time he had a poopy diaper his butt would just burn b/c of the poo… I know I know I hope readers aren’t enjoying a snack… but anyway so everything just cleaning him it was like fighting in a cage match b/c it hurt his bottom and rightfully so but seriously it was horrible. So I put on Facebook about my struggle with this diaper rash from HELL. So one of my church ladies suggested that we try Bag Balm, I have NEVER heard of this stuff before in my life… but it is a MIRACLE drug. It kind of reminds me of Vaseline but it’s much thicker and smells almost like lip balm, but it has been amazing. I guess it creates like a seal on their skin and so it doesn’t burn his skin any more. I just wish I could have found this stuff earlier but it is wonderful, and changing his diaper isn’t horrible any more. His butt is back to a pretty white and he will lay somewhat still for a diaper change. Which for an almost 2 year old… I’m okay with that.

So for the past couple of months I have been on antidepressants and some anxiety medication and I think things have improved a bit, but they still haven’t felt normal. I can’t really describe it but I still feel down just really sad, can’t really describe it besides saying sad. So I decided that it was time to talk to someone about my feelings to see what else can be done because medication alone just wasn’t taking care of. I have been her for about a month now, and I have to say that so far it’s going pretty good. I am definitely recognizing some things that I am doing as far as obstacles that I’m putting in front of myself. I’m working on reality verses the voices in my head. I know scary stuff right. Actually not in the crazy demonic sense in the self talk verses reality. I have a VERY overactive imagination and most of the time I create my own worries over things that logically I shouldn’t be worried over. Also I’m working on some feelings that I have. So far things are going okay. I told her every time I go there I cry, which is very true. But as she says I’m working on some tough things and its okay. I have to say she isn’t Marge but I like her. She definably has some different techniques that we do verses what we did with Marge, but I’m trying to feel centered again. With Marge I always had homework, I don’t have as much homework with Linda but I still have to keep a journal or at least have a way or recording the thoughts that I have later, because usually later is when it hits you. So I hoping that eventually I will feel back to normal and great once again. I am hoping to find my will to do things again. I have to be more positive. I just want to be better for myself and my family that is my goal.

Happy Turkey Day!

You know a lot of my family members and friends put on facebook every day what they are thankful for and they add a little thing every day, I always thing man that would be cool to do that, but it never fails that I remember like in day 10 so than I can’t “join in” b/c it’s already day 10… you know. So what I decided to do this year is provide a small sampling of what I’m most thankful for … in no particular order mind you:

1. My family, extended and immediate. Both mean a lot to me.

2. Being a mother, I know there are people out there who do not have the ability to become a mother for whatever reasons. I am thankful for having the opportunity to have given birth to three wonderful children and have all the ups and downs that come with it.

3. My husband. Marriage is hard. There are many things that you don’t expect when you get married both good and bad. I love my husband and he is a very loving and caring individual.

4. Our home. Our home is one of the most wonderful places that exist on this earth. I can go and relax and enjoy all of my favorite things on this earth.

5. My parents. Being a parent now I understand that things are again much harder than that look when you are wearing the other person’s shoes. I am thankful that I had two loving parents growing up and even today I have two parents that care a lot about me and my family.

6. My grandparents. I have my living grandmother who I look up to and respect. My other grandparents have moved onto another world and I missed opportunities to get to know them better, but I’m thankful that I knew them at points of my life.

7. My education. Life doesn’t always give you the things you want. I’m grateful that I had two parents encouraging me to further my education and learn about different fields. I had the ability to go to college and had the determination to get through, both things that were given to me by my parents.

8. My job. I am grateful that I get to experience new things. I am glad that life threw me a curve ball and made me change some things. I am glad that I am able to provide for my family in a financial sense.

9. Music. Music has a strong way of influencing me. It touches my heart. I love being able to turn on the computer or radio and get lost in the feelings that music makes me feel. I love being able to singing and having the ability to share my voice with others.

10. Last but certainly not least I’m thankful for my children. I have three very bright young spirits that have come to us for us to inspire and encourage to live righteously and to become the best that they can be. Each one has their own special personalities and come with their own stars to shine. They mean the world to me and I’m thankful for having them.

Okay so that’s just a little sampling of what I’m truly grateful for, there are many other things but I don’t want to get too heavy for this Turkey Day blog.

Well I had the best Thanksgiving. I was able to host Thanksgiving and I had a house full of people it was wonderful. My two brothers and their families came up for Thanksgiving. I was able to cook and cook and cook some more it was GREAT. We also played so many board games it was so much fun. I really miss the days of playing board games and hanging out with the family. I hope they all had a good time. The kids got to see each other and play with one another. They were in heaven, it was loud, but it was fine. They really play well with one another so it works out.

On Friday Jackie and I did some Black Friday shopping. I hadn’t done that in so long! That was really a lot of fun. When I told Helen (my mother in law) that we left at 6:30 am in the morning her response was “wow that’s really late.” But you know it was still fun even though it was “late.” They braved the stores at like midnight and didn’t stop until like 4 am… yikes no thanks, 6 was early enough for me. We did get some good deals on things. I think I’m totally done with the whole shopping thing. I have a niece to shop for and that’s it. So that’s exciting! I really had a great time hanging out with my family and enjoying their company and I think they did too.

Well we are still in transition in our home. Tait and I have been adjusting to our new schedules with the kids. We have been back and forth as to what to do with the kids in the morning. The girls were being picked up before school by a friend’s parents well on Monday they forgot to pick them up. So Tait and I have to come up with another idea as to what to do with them in the morning. We have come to the conclusion that we are going to be taking them to CLC. This is the before and after school programming for the kids that we can sign up for, it’s $10 dollars a day for them, but it will avoid us having to get them from school and also what to do with them in the morning before school. We just can rely on the family that was picking them up. We will still utilize Monica when they are out of school for the day, but even the ½ day on Friday we will have them go to CLC, b/c it doesn’t change the cost of it at all. It’s crazy to try to figure out what to do with kids every day. We are trying to figure out what to do about the summer still. I’m trying not to stress about it yet, but as Christmas is fast approaching so will the summer. But I’m trying not to have anxiety of that YET. I am trying to be as rational as I can.

Anyway… so Christmas is on its way and the other day I asked Maya is she wanted to write a Christmas list to Santa and she promptly told me NO, I ask why and she said “b/c I’ll be happy with whatever Santa brings me.” So I thought that was nice, at least she won’t be disappointment when she doesn’t get the thing she really wants. Lehna on the other hand has written a very nice Christmas letter, she wants 6 things, 2 of which are ponies, 1 dog, 1 kitten, a guitar, and another American Girl Doll… hum don’t know if that’s going to work out for her… but that’s her list.

I need to see if we can get them to see Santa before this holiday season is gone. I don’t know how Nikolai will do with Santa, probably be afraid. But I know that Maya and Lehna would be fine and since Lehna is the only child to have seen Santa that maybe it might be nice to take them. I’m almost thinking that Lehna is out of the Santa age so maybe it would be nice to take her before she decides she doesn’t want to believe any more. But no promises.

Our Kiddos!

INTRODUCING MAYA ELIZABETH

Maya is 5 years old soon to be 6. She is a kindergartener and LOVES to do art! She is the free spirit of the family and really enjoys being herself. She is spunky and has a light about her that brightens up any room she comes in. She can entertain herself and be completely happy. She is the independent child of the bunch. She also loves music you can catch her singing to music she heard days ago. She loves her music CDs and loves it when we play them for her.

I asked the kids the same questions:

1. What’s your favorite Color: Pink

2. What’s your favorite Food: Spaghetti

3. What’s your favorite Animal: Elephant

4. What’s your favorite Song: Mary had a Little Lamb

5. What’s the activity do you enjoy most when you are outside: Playing Dolls in the garage

6. Who is your favorite Disney Princess: Rapunzel (she said I should know this already mommy, I was going to guess Cinderella!)

7. What is your favorite movie: Barbie and the Pop Star

8. What’s your favorite toy: Little people (her princesses and princes)

9. What is your favorite vacation: When we went to Marcus and Jackie’s and we played

10. Who is your best friend: MaKayla

11. Name One thing you want to do with your family: Go to the hotel and go swimming, sleep all night and play

12. What’s your favorite cartoon: Sponge Bob or Baby Brats

13. What color of carpeting would you have in your dream castle: Pink & Purple

INTRODUCING LEHNA MARIE

Lehna is 7 years old soon to be 8. She is in 2nd grade and loves school. She is by far the student in school we get glowing remarks about how she behaves and acts in the classroom. She is truly her mama’s daughter however. She has many of her mama’s personality traits at home (not at school). She is outgoing and loves music. She is always singing, listening to music, or making up her own songs. She loves to help me in the kitchen. Anytime she sees me cooking the next thing she says is “can I help?” She also enjoys her little brother. She is the mother hen of the kids. She is always making sure that Maya has her shoes on and that Niki has someone to play with. She is also very caring and loving towards everyone. She is always making sure that everyone is taken care of.

1. What’s your favorite Color: Green

2. What’s your favorite Food: Cyclops Donuts (for those not here, these are glazed donuts that have chocolate icing, than whipped icing in a big dollop on the top)

3. What’s your favorite Animal: Giraffe

4. What’s your favorite Song: I kissed a girl, by Katy Perry (I think this is the only song she knows the words to)

5. What’s the activity do you enjoy most when you are outside: riding her bike

6. Who is your favorite Disney Princess: She said she really doesn’t like that kind of thing anymore, but she guesses Jasmine

7. What is your favorite movie: Dolphin Tale

8. What’s your favorite toy: Her American Girl Doll

9. What is your favorite vacation: Trip to Zoo in Indiana

10. Who is your best friend: Cassandra

11. Name One thing you want to do with your family: Go to the Disneyland and Harry Potter World

12. What’s your favorite cartoon: Fairy Odd Parents

13. What color of carpeting would you have in your dream castle: Green & Blue

INTRODUCING NIKOLAI ANTHONY

Nikolai is almost 2 years old. He is our little prince. He is well favored by all in our family. He is defiantly a boy boy, he loves his cars and his blankies. He is such a sweetie pie. He loves to roll around on the floor and play outside. He is the perfect addition to our family. He is full of life and laughter. His smiles allow him to get away with EVERYTHING. He has the sweetest disposition but he knows he’s the ruler of our land.

1. What’s your favorite Color: He doesn’t really have one, everything is blue

2. What’s your favorite Food: Hot Dog & French fries

3. What’s your favorite Animal: Dog, Mainly b/c he knows what they sound like

4. What’s your favorite Song: Five Little Monkeys

5. What’s the activity do you enjoy most when you are outside: Walking up and down the side walk with grandpa

6. Who is your favorite Disney Princess: Nahh… he is more into cars

7. What is your favorite movie: Annie, He LOVES music

8. What’s your favorite toy: cars, anything he can carry in his little hand

9. What is your favorite vacation: Unsure

10. Who is your best friend: Colton

11. Name One thing you want to do with your family: Sleep in my parents arms with a blankie and warm bottle, he’s in heaven

12. What’s your favorite cartoon: Caiou and Thomas the Tank

13. What color of carpeting would you have in your dream castle: He would like a fort, something built of pillows so he could climb rather than a castle

Adventures of the Babysitter

Well yesterday was the start of the changes for my children. They started going to a babysitter. Niki did great yesterday. Monica said that the only time her cried is when she tried putting him down for a nap. At first he went right to sleep with just a few sucks on his bottle. Then when she tried to lay him down he woke up… so she said she went back to rocking him again and this time she fell asleep in the chair with him. She said she woke up 15 minutes later and tried to lay him down again and he woke up. She said she let him cry for 1 minute and than he was out. So nap time was the only time he even made a peep. She said he was so quiet and so such a sweet little boy.


Lehna said she had fun at the babysitters and she did all of her homework… well I looked at her stuff and not all of her homework is completed. But at least she started it anyway. She said she had a good time there and was excited about going back.

Maya on the other hand was a different story. When I came in Maya said that the dog bit her. I looked at Monica and asked what had happened and Monica said that she wasn’t sure what exactly happened. She said they were in the living room and then Maya came in the kitchen saying the dog bit her. Monica said that she isn’t really sure b/c the dog is very sweet and wouldn’t bite. So I told her I would find out more to the story. So I find out later that Maya was rubbing the dog’s belly when she started to rub his paw. She then said she pinched his paw and that is the when the dog nipped at her. There was no bite marks or anything of that nature but I think it scared her more than anything. So Maya and I had to talk about the importance of being respectful to the dog and not pinching the dog. Maya is stating she refuses to go back to the babysitter but I explained that she would be returning and if she was nice to the dog… the dog would be nice to her. So that was the only issue we had yesterday so overall not too bad just had to get her over this dog thing. I think Maya is feeling some guilt over the issue which is why she is acting like she doesn’t want to go back, but she will adjust and I told Monica that too. I’m sure that they will become good friends eventually.

So it was a good day. We came home to Spanish hot dog sauce that was cooking in the crock pot… so it was a good day. Tonight Tait is making Lasagna in the crock pot. I am hoping it will be good. It looks pretty simply but we’ll see 

The kids by the time we came home from work were WOUND up they were just bouncing off the walls they were just so happy and excited about life. So that was kind of crazy. We played on the floor for a little bit than Lehna had some extra energy and wanted to play Dance 3 so I had a dance off with her. This went fine until I beat her and then she threw a fit and spent some time in her room. But overall it was a good evening. It should be an interesting change with the new routine and getting the kids going.

The next two days I have to take kids to the dentist appointments. The girls are going today and then Niki goes tomorrow. I’m hoping that it won’t take too long. But basically that’s all I have for now… I know I’m not very exciting but this is a daily update verses a weekly update and seriously just not that much happens. I will work on taking more pictures however b/c I think that would be good to add 

The HAIR CUT!

Okay so on Friday I took the girls to go get their hair cut at the lady we always go to. Well Maya went first and she was back there a good 20 minutes and came back with a wedge style hair cut… so I was looking over her hair and Emily (beautician) said that she did a dry cut on her b/c Maya doesn’t like to sit still, and wanted to get her in and out very quickly b/c Maya’s attention span is really not too good. So I was fine with that. And she said that if I thought she needed some touch ups just to stop by and she would get those touch ups for me. I said okay. So as I was looking over her hair as we waiting for Lehna to get done, the more and more I really just wasn’t too sure about Maya’s hair cut. It kind of looked strange on her… not bad just strange. But I thought it was because it was new and the more I saw it the more I would like it… well that didn’t happen. The more I looked at it the more I didn’t like it…


On Saturday the kids were going up to my parents for the night because Tait and I had an adult’s only wedding reception to go to so we needed a sitter. So the girls took a shower and as I was brushing Maya’s hair I decided that I was going to cut it. I didn’t have time to take her to get it done at the hair place so I thought that I would section it and do it really slow and since it was wet that would help. So Maya was watching television and I told her that I was going to cut her hair and she was fine with it. So I sectioned out the hair and started at the back since that is where it was its shortest and started cutting. The first side went pretty smoothly I felt like it was good. The other side… well not so much it was more all the same length verses the other side. So I did the best job that I could and sent her on her way. It doesn’t look terrible but it doesn’t look professional either. So while she was gone on Saturday I set up an appointment to get her hair FIXED on Wednesday. We will go back to Emily so she can even out what I did. Like I said it’s not terrible but it’s not professional either. I do feel badly however as to how to explain why I did what I did. I really don’t want to say b/c I just didn’t like the hair cut you gave her. So I’ll have to think of another excuse before then. But here are her pictures.

 Just FYI we do not have our Christmas tree up, this was at sears that Lehna took of Maya.  They were trying NOt to to be bored while we shopped.

Lehna on the other hand has really wanted her hair cut in a pixie cut. I told her that if she gets it cut that short that there is no going back she will have to wait a long time for it to grow out. Well she really wanted it short like that and so when we went to get her hair cut I told her to pick out a picture in one of the book that was there and we would agree on. So she brought up a picture and I told her no b/c the hair cut was really strange… but then I suggested another hair cut that she kind of liked and the more she looked at it the more she liked it so she went with the new hair cut. So Emily took her back and cut her hair. I think her hair cut is super cute and Lehna seems to really like it so I guess that is all I can ask for.

This weekend was kind of different not having kiddos around on Saturday afternoon and Sunday. It was kind of nice eating a warm lunch and not having to get up 500 times to serve the children. We went to a coworker’s house before we went to the actual reception and that was fun hanging out with them. You can tell however that this group of friends has had a long history together because they were talking about stories that we weren’t part of and so that was kind of awkward since we didn’t have anything to put forth but it was fine. The wedding reception was good to. The couple had gotten married in Disney World in Florida in August so this was their reception. They served appetizers and had an open bar for a little bit. They did run out of food that was a little strange. The bride and groom didn’t get to eat, they said that they were going to be bringing pizza so the bride and groom was going to eat that. They also didn’t have a traditional wedding cake, instead they had cupcakes. Which was kind of interesting because the didn’t serve each other cake or anything like that. So it was not a traditional reception, but it was nice at least we were included.

On Sunday we did some housework so that was exciting. The kids were gone and we did laundry and dishes. We also went to the grocery store that was super fun without kids. We needed just a few things to start Niki at the babysitter this week.

Niki went to the babysitter this morning. He really was interested in playing with their two puppy dogs they really enjoyed that. And they were getting ready to have breakfast. So I know that eventually he will really enjoy going there. Today was easy drop off b/c he was distracted by the dogs so tomorrow might be the challenge. He’ll know that I’m not staying, verses today I got to sneak out. The girls will start going there after school today as well so Tait will get them about 4 pm just before we pick them up a little later. This week we are picking them up from school and taking them to daycare but after this week the baby sitter will pick them up from school. We wanted an opportunity for the girls to get to know Monica and her daughter Marissa since that is whom will be picking them up, we didn’t want them to not know what they looked like. 

So we are changing changing changing around here. We are learning new routes and figuring things out. I’m working on my menu for thanksgiving and getting that already ready for our guests. I’m very excited about that! I’m trying to think of some fun things for all of us to do for the weekend. So any local residents that have any ideas let me know.

So enjoy your week and hopefully I’ll update soon!

News and other Views

So I have to say that one of my favorite past times right now is reading Yahoo “news” articles. I use the word news as very lightly as I can b/c most of the time it’s just crap. Well what I really enjoy reading is the comments that people make, most of the time they crack me up.


I was reading one of the articles about how Kate Middleton was wearing the same dress twice to another event. (like I said this is the News part I was telling you about earlier) the comments were funny so I picked out a few so to show you what I’m talking about…

rocketman : in other news, I wore the same suit I bought 5 years ago to an event for probably 35th time now.

T : So what. Its a lovely dress. Is she supposed to cut it up and make doilies with it, after she wears it once or something?

figure8 They #$%$ if she has a new wardrobe, she makes headlines when she wear something twice, PEOPLE get a life. Go change your underwear or something.

Jennilynn A. Wait, you can reuse clothes?



It really makes me smile some of the comments that are posted on Yahoo at times. Sometimes they can just be cruel and mean but other times it’s slamming Yahoo for their choice of “news” articles. Other times they are just people complaining about why they clicked on the article. I don’t know they make me smile so I wanted to share.

Well last night was a pretty exciting night. I went on a second interview with the company that I had talked to before. I think it sounds like there’s going to be a job offer made. But my ½ hour interview I was planning on ending up taking 1 ½ hours! It was really long, but it was good I understand more about their business a little better so that will help me make my decision a little better. I really am caught between a rock and a hard place as far as the job front goes and I’m worried about all the changes that are going to be occurring and I Really don’t know if this is going to be a change I want to make, or will I need to make it. It’s kind of frustrating, and nerve racking all at the same time.

So by the time I got home it was like 7:30 and by the time I came home I wasn’t able to make my favorite pizza, which is: tomato, mozzarella, basil, and garlic on a homemade crust let me tell you it is YUMMY! And it’s super fast so I love it! But any way. I was craving No Baked Cookies like crazy so I made those instead! I thought for a few minutes that they were going to be bad and not set up but you know they set up fine, I just wasn’t patient. I was looking through Lehna’s homework file and discovered the Lehna actually had WAY more homework than we thought. Tait did homework earlier with both girls and we thought it was completed, but I found more. So we worked on that. Lehna and I were chatting away as I was making No Bakes and she was doing her homework. Maya decided she wanted in on the action and she came in and was telling me about her day as well. It was really fun. The girls really love to help me cook or bake. I let them help as much as they can but my problem is just feeling it’s easier if I did it myself. So I have to work on that.

I am really going to try to work on this better. I know that the girls would love to be able to cook more and I’m going to really try to allow them to help me more. Obviously some things won’t be allowed but like the touching of raw meat or knife things, but dumping things into a bowl they should be able to handle, even Lehna can help with measuring. So note to self allow them to do more.

I feel like since I got home so late that I hardly spent any time with the little man. We are getting into super bad habits with him. Well not starting but continuing bad habits he truly is our little prince, we are going to PAY big time!

But anyway that’s life yesterday…

Oh...  Maya came into our room this morning and told me about her dream she had last night... She said that she went over to Grandma Jeanette's house and when they got there they had two swimming pools in their kitchen.  She said she really loved it because she got to go swimming in her kitchen last night.  
She is super cute... Her dreams crack me up. 

*They are going to be spending the night at Grandma Jeanette's and Grandpa Terry's on Saturday to Sunday b/c we are attending an evening wedding and they are both SUPER excited. 

Dusting off the ol’ Blog

So I would like to say that I’m going to start blogging again on a regular basis. But that’s a really hard promise to make and to be honest I just don’t know if I’m up to it. But I will try to blog as much as I possibly can; I don’t even update facebook on a regular basis any more. Oh well. Well one thing if you have been off blogging for awhile when you search around you can read updates on people that you haven’t really done in awhile. My sister in law for example has other blogs listed on her blog and I have to tell you those women are true to their blog they blog at least once a week or more… way more than I do… but anyway I was able to catch up on some of her friends’ lives most of them I haven’t read in a couple of years so it was kind of fun for me to read and see how people lives have changed and etc. I don’t know it’s like watching the neighbors from the window, or listening to their phone conversations via scanner, but it’s more high tech and they put it up for public view so it’s not as creepy compared to the previously mentioned methods of snooping. But anyway I digress.

So the changes around our little home are starting to take effect. Our home is starting to fill with boxes of Tim and Helen’s items and the little man is starting to think he can have his own movable fort. I have to say I’m very worried about how Niki will handle the change with Tim and Helen no longer living with us. He LOVES his grandparents so much and I’m just really worried as to how he will do, but this will be good for all involved so it will be okay. The sad part is we only go to Indiana about 3-4 times a year so he will forget them and when we go there he won’t remember how much of a grandpa’s boy he truly is. So that’s kind of sad but it’s part of how life happens.

So next week Niki starts going to the baby sitter. I’m so excited for him but nervous at the same time. I know that he is really going to enjoy having another child to play with during the day so it’s a great move for him. It’s going to be a big change for the girls too b/c they are going to be going to the babysitter after school too so that should be different but the baby sitter is going to pick them up from school and bring them back to baby sitter so that will be AWSOME! I’m super excited that we won’t have to figure out how to get them to the babysitter every day. Lehna is very excited about being able to go to the babysitter; she wants to be able to help with the other baby as much as possible so I thought that was sweet. Maya said she really liked all the toys that Monica, the babysitter, which were all new to her.

Well also interesting reading I have decided to go back to therapy again. I have to say that I miss Marge something terrible but I have been taking anti-depressants for about 9 months and I still feel like I’m on a roller coaster so I’ve decided that maybe I need to talk to someone, help get my head back where it feels normal again. I think this will be a good move for everyone, my family is very important to me and I think that by getting out my frustrations and feelings with a counselor will seriously just help my relationships with them. It’s just one of those things that you just feel you need to do. I defiantly have some goals in mind of things that I want to accomplish and I’m hoping that together we can make some great changes. So one thing that I have pointed out is my negative self talk. I do this so often I really don’t even realize when I’m doing it. This is something that I am going to work on, it’s hard being so hard on me, and I need to give myself a break. I need to stop personalizing everything that has gone wrong and instead recognize all the positive things that I have done. It’s a total switch of focus, this will be a major challenge for me, but I think I’m up to it.

We are in the realm of change. You know change is stressful but it’s wonderful too. I’m excited about our new change to our family and I am very excited to be able to make new rules of the house with Tait and the family. We are going to moving in a great direction and I’m excited about it.

On the job front, well there isn’t much to report I’m kind of still in Limbo in my current position. I am able to apply for other openings through Kenosha County as openings appear which I am starting to do; being fearful that my position here might end only b/c the lady might come back… especially as the clerical union ends so it should be interesting. I also have been applying other places as well just to keep as many options that I can. I have an interview today for a company that I’m fairly certain I will get an offer from. I have an interview on Monday for a staffing company, and I had a test with the city this week for a position I applied for. So I have some things in the hopper I’m just trying to figure things out and make the best moves that I can. So it’s trying to decide should I wait and see here and take the risk or do I move on before it’s too late. So It’s kind of hard to decide what in the world to do, but I don’t want too many changes at once but I kind of feel that we will be guided in the direction we are supposed to go, so I have to trust that. I just have to trust in the process that I think is the tricky part, it’s the holding on that you have to just kind of wade through and being the patient person that I CLEARLY am it’s difficult for me. I think that’s why I am given so many things that take “time” to figure themselves out b/c it’s another time to be patient. Yikes I hate being patient!!!! So I guess we’ll figure this out, whatever we are going to do we will figure this out.

Well I wish I had more to say but I think I’m all out. I know that I have missed so many things about the kid’s postings and such but moving forward this is another thing I’m going to work on. I can just keep trying and holding my head up.